Suddenly everything changes 19

***ABDULLAH:

Me: ghala.. etha t7beena.. o uhwa y7ibich.. ana mara7 ogaf eb darbkum .. o allah ywafigkum..

It broke my heart.. every word I said.. I didn’t mean it!

I love her!

I want her!

She’s supposed to be MINE!

But she loves…. Him

I tried.. but I couldn’t hold back my tear.. it betrayed me and fell in front of ghala

I didn’t want her to sense my weakness

To sense my love..

It took every muscle in my body to turn around and walk away..

I didn’t want to!

I wanted ghala to stay in my arms forever..

And ever..

Ahhhhhhh

I entered the duwanyia.. and saw a pack of new cigarettes..

I stared at it.. I couldn’t help my self

That shit looked so tempting.. and god knows how much I need a cigarette right now!

NO! abdullah you went through hell to quite! You don’t want to go through that again!

I grabbed the pack and took out a cigarette.. I was looking for something to light it with

Hmm and then I remembered..

That night when ghala came to me and saw me smoking,  she frowned and covered her nose ..

*FLASHBACK:

ghala: waay abdullah laih meta bidakhin?

Me: haha lama allah yafrijha

Ghala: ya3ny matadry enna mu zain? Ya3ny shnu tabeeny agoolik aw awareek 3ashan tqtini3 

enha mo zaina?

Me: wallah adry bs shinsawy hatha el7ath

Ghala moved in her seat and sighed..

Ghala: wallah y3awerny galby lama ashoofik edakhin! 7aram wallah 7aram its like your killing 

your self everyday.. if you don’t care about your self tara your family does!! I do o I don’t want to see you get hurt!

And there was that look in her eyes.. she was sincerely upset.. it broke my heart

I threw my cigerette on the floor..

Me: wallah 9a7 kalamich! Khala9 3ashanich ba7awel ag6a3!

She looked at me with a surprised look on her face..

Ghala: abdullah tara maytha7iik!! Min9ijik??

I flashed her a smile: eeee akeed min9ijyy!! Cham ghala 3indy ana?

Hmm I think at that time, I started having feelings for her without realizing..

I came back to reality..

I removed the cigarette from my mouth and crushed it!

I was enraged!!

I stepped on the cigarette pack.. and started punching the wall!!

Me: AAAAAAH!!!!

Why is this happening??

If only I admitted my love for her earlier..

If only I have realized I loved her earlier!!

But what is done is done!!

She loves him.. he loves her.. I need to accept that

I got out my phone.. and texted aziz..

“tewakal 3ala allah o ekh6ibha min ahalha.. mara7 amni3ik.

Bs tadry ena etha athait’ha eb ay 6areeqa matloom ella nafsik”

I read it a couple of times over and over again..

Then I decided to press, “send”.

***GHALA:

The weeks passed and my parents came back from America!

I missed them SOOO MUCHH!! I’m the happiest person alive!!

And oh did I mention? IM OFFICIALLY ENGAGED TO AZIZ!!

Aaah I’m so excited and nervous at the same timeee!!

Elyoom yaw ereyayeel o 7adidaw el mahar o yoom elmilcha which is a month from now..

A7is maku wagt akhalis kilshay!!

My sisters were all happy for me.. their youngest sister finally getting married..

And thary was happy too but he was a little surprised that Aziz, being abdullah’s best friend, was 

marrying me.. and abdullah disappeared and for no reason!

And no, I haven’t seen Abdulla since that night at the shalaih.. he travelled to London and didn’t come 

back yet!

He only texted me..

“Mabrook ghala.. allah yhanekum”

I replied: “allah ybarik feek matga9er! Btw I miss you;*”

But he ignored..

Anyway!! I have a million things to do before the milcha which is going to be in aziz’s house..

They’re house is BEAUTIFUL AND HUGE!! And they’re basement is the perfect place for the milch a! 

I called the party planner and booked her in advance so she could help with the decorations.. I couldn’t do 

everything on my own.

His 2 sisters, Muneera (20) and Sara (17) are very sweet and helpful!! I love them!

My phone rang.. it was aziz

Me: alooo

Aziz: hala bhal 9oot!

Me: hala feeek;p

Aziz started singing: 3yooonik akher amaly o laily a6wal min elyam kaif alga kalamin 3athb yo9af dafy 

e7sasy? 3ashagtik gabl ma ashofik o shftik 9irt kily 7ilm aby rimshik ygha6eeny o abeek agrab min anfasyyy

I blushed: awww!! I love youuu

Aziz: ya bakhtyyy!! Wallah hal kilma taqtilny

Me: hehe smilla 3alaiik

Aziz: ya salam 3alaiichh! Et9adgeen walaht 3alaich?

Me: ee akeed ana bsr3a ynwilih 3alay

Aziz: et9adgeen entay mu mal kalam 7ilu?

Me: loool wallah ana walahana 3alaiik ba3add!!

Aziz: hmm egoloon bacher ebt6l3een ma3a saro o manor!!

Me: eee badawer dress 7ag el milchaa

Aziz: bariiz wayhyy

Me: laaa

Aziz: affa laish??

Me: bs abeeha tkoon surprise!!

Aziz: ee rag3ay rag3ay!

Me: haha wallah! Aby tyee o titfaja’ eb kilshaay!

Aziz: yallah ok ba3ad shnsawyy allah yaster bas madry shnawya 3alaiih

We continued talking until it was 3pm ..

We hung up and I went down stairs where my mother was sitting..

Mom: hala bibnaytyyy.. zain nezaltay

Me: hehe akeed banzilichh!! Ha 3ayal wain uboy?

Mom: 6ala3 3inda cham shaghla lazim akhali9’ha

Me: ee ok..

Mom: enzain 7abeebty bagolich shay

Me: tefathilaay

Mom: tara e7na bnsafer 3ugub milchitich 3ala 6ool.. o manigdar en’ajilha zyada

I was shocked!

Me: laaaaa! Laish mama I neeeed you with me!

Mom: adry 7abeebty wallah bs manigdar ubouch 3inda shighil o khawatech ma3ach mara7 ega9roon!!

Me: adryy bs entay ghaiir! O laykoon mara7 tyeen 7ag el3irs?

Mom: 6ab3aan binye enshallah!!

Thag khilgy 7aill.. I wanted my mother to be with me at all times especially at this time..