Thirty.

A Walk Down Memory Lane..30 (LAST POST)

هب السعد هبايبه لرياحي

ويا شاريه لعباد وين صلاحي

Looking around at all the smiling faces, I had a hard time breathing. Suddenly everything blurred out and all I can see was the Kosha. I wanted to sprint to it but it felt like it was miles and miles away.

وشبهت الزينه و الصبا حين لين دنه
ولا القمر و اربعه واثناني

The multiple camera flashes blinded my eyes. I was so nervous and I hated my smile when I was nervous. I can see my chest rise up and fall down as my heart beats accelerated.

هب السعد هبايبه لرياحي
ويا شاريه لعباد وين صلاحي

My trembling hands were wrapped around my flower bouquet. My dress was so heavy and long. Thank god Rawan and Nawal were there to help move my dress out of my way. My feet were already in pain from my long heels.

يا مهرة (ن) عند الايواد
ربوها بيت (ن ) رفيع ومركز(ن) عالي

I looked down at my diamond ring and thought this is it. I’m Msa3ad’s wife and he’s my husband. Ok, now I’m starting to panic. The photographer wass gesturing for me to smile but I was way to anxious.

حظي على اخوانج يا الزينه جمله
عوضتهم بالواحدين واحداني

The song gave me goose bumps. I always felt in awe whenever I’m in someone’s wedding and the bride comes in, but now it’s MY wedding. My legs started to tremble.

وشبه قرتها هوى لسهيل باجج
قطنن يديد الماهو الميزاني

I gave them one last toothy smile before I reached the kosha. I turned around as the music started to pick up. My cousins and his cousins, who were gathered around the kosha, started to dance and clap around me. It was beautiful.

After the music finally came to an end I sat down. I really wanted to take off my heels and lay down.  :(

One by one my aunts started to pile up in front of me congratulating and complimenting. Then his mother and sisters came, and then Nawal and Rawan.

“Mashallaa gumarr et’haableen,” Rawan said as she wiped a tear off her cheek.

“Waay 7ata entayyy walla,” I said in my trembling voice.

“Mabroooook Monyaa wa2akheeraaan tam kilshay besalam,” Nawal said as she kissed both my cheeks.

“Ee walla el7imdla, abaaih 7ady khayfa galbyy yrgaa3!” I said.

“Latkhaaafeen o stansaay khalas the hard part is over,” Nawal said before they left.

Dr. Manar came up with a huge grin on her face. She had helped me through a lot so it was an honor to have her in my wedding.

“T’haaableeen smilaa 3alaaich!!! Maabrooook mina el maal o minich li3yaal,” she said as she kissed both my cheeks.

“7abeeebtyy Manar matga9reeen o allaah ybarik eb 7ayaatichh,” I said.

Other women started to come some I knew and others I didn’t really recognize. 6ab3an eltas6eel elly nizaal 3alaaay shay mo 3ady wa7da etgoly mabrrooook wana agolaha el7imdla bkhair :)

9irt bas a7arik bara6my wabtisim o magol shay china ya3ny el aghany 3alya 3ashan mafashel nafsy!!

After a while more people crowded the dance floor and I was alone looking at everyone and smiling. This is really amazing!

La7tha, elaghany kil wa7da a7la min elthanyaa aby agoom argi9 :’)

Ahhh 7ady yoo3ana tawny athker enny ma taghadait :O I NEVER skip a meal, why now? Lets hope my stomach doesn’t decide to make angry noises when Msa3ad’s here.

Ahh every time I remember Msa3ad my heart skips a beat, I’m so nervous.

The time passed by so quickly before they announced that the groom was coming.  A chill ran down my spine as I sat up straight. I was so nervous but I was smiling like an idiot, I’m sure.

Msa3ad walked in with my brothers on one side, his brothers and father on the other side, my grandpa and my dad.

MY DAD IS HERE!!!!!

I grinned so wide when I saw my dad walk alongside my grandpa. After what happened between us I never really talked to him. He was really helpful throughout my milcha and wedding, though. I thought he’d be angry with me and give me the cold shoulder, but of course he wouldn’t he’s my father. I missed him.

An army of men marched up to the kosha behind Msa3ad, and AlRadhan’s band were playing their famous songs behind them.

Msa3ad walked up to me with a grin on his face, I couldn’t help grinning wider when I saw his face. He kissed my forehead and stood on my left side as the men started congratulating him.

My brothers came up to me and kissed my forehead too.

“Mabroook,” 9ali7 said.

“Mabrookk Manawyy walla ra7 olah 3alaich,” Saad said as he gave me a half hug.

“Allah ybarik feek, hehe shda3wa mara7 ahajer,” I said.

“Walla many m9adig enich bttzawijain, ya3ny Msa3ad had banat eldeera kilhum o khathach entay?” Omar said.

“Hah 7saby ma3ak ba3dain,” I said with a fake smile.

“Haha mabroook awal walad tsameena 3alay fahma,” he said before my grandpa pushed him away.

“Mabroook 7abeeebty allah yis3idkum enshallah o ywafigkum,” he said.

“Allah ybarik feeek baba ameen o yis3idik mithl ma as3adtna,” I said.

Then my father walked awkwardly up to me.

“Mabrook 7abeebty, allah ywaniskum bl3afya,” he said as his eyes began to tear.

“Allah ybarik feek,” I said as I hugged him real tight.

I quickly wiped away my tears I really didn’t want to ruin my makeup.

Finally, all the mena left and it was just Msa3ad and I.

He enveloped my hand in his and smiled.

“Wallaa jamalik makhala feeny 3agel,” he whispered in my ear.

I smiled and my cheeks turned into fifty shades of red.

“Mabrook 3alaich ana,” he said with a grin.

“Haha allah ybarik feek,” I said.

“Ma3araftich wintay msta7yaa,” he said.

“Magdar arid 3alaik al7een,” I said giggling like a mad woman.

“Ya7ilo hal tha7ka, 3asa kil ayamna afra7 o tawfeeg min allah goolay ameeen,” he said as he squeezed my hand.

“Ameeen min bu2ak labab el samaaa,” I said.

Haha al7een 3araft shegolon el ma3arees lama ytsasiroon.

It was such a magical night. As much as I was worried, it turned out greater than what I had expected. I raised my head, closed my eyes, and whispered “الحمدلله” a word coming from the heart.

Life can get bumpy sometimes, I'm one to know, but it has its good side. Life will throw rocks at you but it’s just to make you a stronger shield. Its not always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes reality decides to give you the taste of your own medicine. That’s why you should always work hard and be good to people because we're all leaving this world as equals.

There’s wisdom behind every good and bad. Maybe I don’t know it or you don’t know it, but God sure does. Even though you can’t see the "good" in a bad situation, just believe that there it exists. As much as you believe, the good will tiptoe its way to your life.

Always remember that if the world gave you the cold shoulder, God is always there for you. Sajda wa7daa tgdaar tghayer waayeddd ashyaa. Just pour your heart out and believe deep down that God will help you and that everything will be better again, then sit back and watch the small miracles of life take place.

Never lose hope in anything. If you were in need someday and found no one there to help you, just raise your hands and lower your head and pray to God.

When you feel miserable remember that it’s a bad day and not a bad life. Don’t let every bad situation get to you and dim down your sparkle. You should smile in the midst of all your troubles and agony and just strengthen your faith in God.

All I’m trying to say is, whenever life brings you down, try to spring right back up. It’s not easy but it’s not impossible. Just think, is it going to be worth all the pain I’m through when I think about it a month, 6 months or a year from now? You will always realize that nothing is actually worth that pain. And as Eleanor Roosevelt said, "No one can hurt you without your consent."

Think about it. ;)

**I CANT TELL YOU GUYS HOW MUCH IM GOING  TO MISS YOU!!! I REALLY ENJOYED THIS EXPERIENCE WHERE I MET SO MANY BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE, ITS AN HONOR. YOU MADE THIS JOURNEY MEMORABLE AND FUN THAAANK YOUU!! I LOVE YOUU ALL FOR SUPPORTING ME AND ENJOYING MY STORIES JAD IT MEANS SOOO MUCH!!

3ASA ALLAH YIS3IDKUUM O YWAFIGKUUUM O ENSHALLAHH YIJMA3NA MA3A BA3AATH BILJANNAA YARAAB!!!

AKHER NA9EEE7A MINYY LIKUM WHATEVER YOU DOO LATILHOON EB HALDINYA O LATINSOON RABKUM, 7AFTHAW 3ALA 9ALATKUM O SM3AW KALAM UMAHATKUM O UBAHATKUM LANA MA7AD YADRY META YFAREG HAL DINYA (BA3AD 3UMRIN 6WEEL). ANYWAYYY, GOODBYE MY LOVES <3<3<3<3