Give fate a chance 1

Hello lovely readers, I have missed you!! I am happy to say that I'm back with a new story!! This is the prologue (muqadima) ..

Please read it and tell me what you think, your feedback is very much appreciated. Thank you!

Enjoyy;*

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Let us not be satisfied with just giving money. Money is not enough, money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them. So, spread your love everywhere you go. - Mother Teresa

There are a huge number of people that believe that money is the only source of happiness. They believe that if a person has wealth, luxurious cars, and expensive bags they must be really cool. They made the materialistic things define a person, and not their personality or morals. There are some girls who would rather marry a rich guy with no morals, than marry a normal guy with a great personality and ethics. 

Unfortunately, this way of thinking created different classes in our society. There is the elite (rich) class, then there's the medium working class and lastly there are the poor class. There are people who can get whatever they want without having to work for it, and others who work really hard and couldn’t get anything.

So these people feel left out, and the only way for them to fit in our cruel society is to go to extreme measures in order to provide for themselves. They would borrow money or take loans from the bank just to buy an expensive car or handbag. Then they have to live the rest of their lives trying to pay back their debts. They're living a lie. 

Well I believe that good things happen to people who wait. If I was born into the medium class, I will not try to lie to myself and others by buying things I know that I cant afford, because this is not happiness. Living everyday worrying if the bank might take your car or house because you failed to pay back your depts, is not happiness. Being friends with people who only value you because of what you own is not happiness. Living a fake life just to impress people who will most probably backstab or betray you in a certain stage in your life is definitely not how I would define happiness. 

Because these people who befriended you because of what you own, will instantly walk away from you when you loose everything. However, the real friends that don't really care about your Prada bag or Cartier bracelet these friends will never leave you and will be by your side till the very end. 

Everything that you do can make you happy, whether you were wearing Louboutin heels or sandals that you bought from a thrift store. Because happiness is very different than the people in our society, or any society; it doesn't care if you're rich or poor. Happiness doesn't see if you’re pretty or ugly. All that happiness looks for is a pure heart with good intentions. It grows with every good deed you do, and spreads the joy throughout your veins. 

Happiness is about spending the day with the people you love. Whether you were vacationing in London, or sitting in a one-room apartment in your hometown because you cant afford a bigger house. Therefore, happiness cannot be associated with money.

Its true, sometimes expensive things can make us happy, but does this happiness last? You would buy something expensive because you fell in love with it in the spur of the moment, but after a couple of days you would get bored and look for something else to buy. Unlike the happiness you feel when you're with your loved ones. You would look at a picture you took with your friends a couple of years back and you would still feel the love and the joy you felt during that time. You would instantly smile because it brings back so many great memories. That is the true meaning of happiness. 

Also, happiness is about appreciating the little things. Without family, love, or trust your life would be an empty black hole. Everyone needs someone to care for them, share their sadness and joy and money doesn't offer that. All that money offers are things. Things that do us more bad than good!

There are a lot of billionaires in this world who failed to buy their happiness. Because they once thought that money was everything and dedicated their whole life trying to make big money. They probably didn't let anyone stand in their way, and in their heads is a multitude of thoughts consisting of fear and doubt. Continuously thinking that everyone is after their money, they exclude themselves from the world and cut whatever ties are left with their loved ones. Then, when they grow old and need their family by their side, they look around and all they see are the gold plated windowpanes or the empty 20 something bedrooms in their huge mansion. Finally, the realization hits them, money made it easy for them to buy everything in this world, except the things that matter like love, family, or acceptance. 

Now, where did I learn all that? Well it’s from experience. I have found, by loving people according to who they are and not what they have, a meaning of true happiness.  

I never thought for a second that my life would turn out to be this way. It had turned in all directions, went backwards and forward, until I reached the place I'm in today! I felt the need to tell you my story, for it has helped me grow in many ways. I only hope that it would do the same to you. 

Fashion Finds

I stumbled upon this website called Moda Operandi. Its different from other fashion websites because it shows you the collection as soon as it hits the runway. It allows you to preorder any piece from the collection in your size, some of these pieces would never be available in stores. You just have to pay a 50 % deposit on whatever you want and as soon as your pieces are ready, the designer would send them to Moda Operandi and they'll deliver it to you.

I signed up on their mailing option, so they send me an email whenever a new trunkshow comes up.

Anyway, these are some of the jewelry/clothes I liked from different designers.

Jewelry:

Designer: Mawi, I loved almost the whole collection. These are just a few of what I liked:

Clothing: 

Designer: J. Mendel, 

Designer: Open Ceremony,

Designer: Antonio Berardi,

Source

Personality test

Hello beautiful people!!

So I bought a book from Dubai a few months ago, and I just remembered to read it. Its called “The Big Book of Personality Tests for Women,” by Robin Westen, I love these types of books filled with small tests just to make you get to know yourself a little better.

I decided to share one of the tests with you guys its called “Do you follow your heart?”

Make sure to answer this test and share with us your result, enjoy!

Part One

Choose the statement that you most agree with.

1.

            a. Love makes the world go round.

            b. Money makes the world go round, but love makes the ride worthwhile.

2.

            a. I can read a person’s true nature in an instant.

            b. It takes time to really know someone.

3.

            a. I’m an avid collector of mementos and souvenirs.

            b. I clean out my closets regularly and avoid collecting knickknacks.

4.

            a. I believe in fate.

            b. I believe we control our own destinies.

5.            

            a. You can change someone through the power of love.

            b. Only we can change ourselves.

Part two:

Complete the following:

6. To win the PTA’s support for a project that’s close to your heart, you’ll:

            a. Appeal to their humanitarian impulses with an impassioned speech

            b. Organize and circulate a petition to support your cause.

7. The supermarket’s gourmet section is promoting some mouth-watering (but rather expensive) goodies. You’re more likely to:

            a. Treat yourself to the most tempting item

            b. Make do with a few samples

8. In your dream biopic, which d these hunks would you cast as your leading man?

            a. George Clooney

            b. Tom Hanks

9. Your man could make your heart sing the loudest by:

            a. Offering you a perfect red rose with a graceful flourish

b. Fixing all the leaky faucets in the house --- without making you ask even once

Your Score

Note: If your score falls equally between the two categories, read both descriptions since you share characteristics of both types.

Mostly A’s:

Your heart rules.

A real romantic, you’re in love with love. You laugh and cry easily and your reactions are genuine, this kind of sensitivity is admirable --- but it can be overwhelming. Give your mind the reins sometimes … but never toughen up. Your charm lies in the fact that your heart is an open book.

Mostly B’s:

You stay balanced.

Passionate about being sensible, you listen to your heart but never let it dictate your actions. That’s fine, but if your grounded approach stats weighing you down, try trusting your emotions and see how much sense your feelings make. 

Suddenly everything changes 31

Hellloo my dear readers!! I am sad to inform you that this is the last post in this story! I really enjoyed this new experience and I'm sure that this won't be my last story..

Anyway enjoy the last post and let me know what you think;*

Enjoyyy<3

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***ABDULLAH:

“youm agbalat 9awat laha jar7y elgadeeeem

youm agbalat 6irna laha ana o shogy wilnaseeem”

“wi3yoooonahaaa!

3ain elma7atny wish’hagat .. o 3ain e7thanat 3ainy o bakat..

o ya far7ityyyy”

I haven’t seen her in a while..

And I finally see her today..

She was sitting on the beach reading a book under the moonlight..

She was ghala..

MY ghala, I can proudly say..

As I walked closer I realized that salma, hala, and talah were also there..

But as soon as I spotted ghala, everything else blurred out.

            “el7ath elaaila kareem! Ma7boobity ma3zooma min thimn el ma3azeeem..

            fe za7maat enaas 9a3ba 7ality.. faj2a ekhtalaf loony o tha3at khu6waty”

me: e7m e7m ..

She looked up at me, closed the book and stood up..

And as if on queue, the girls stood up one by one and left the beach for ghala and I to be alone..

            “mithly wgefat talmis jroo7y o 7eerty..

b3eed wgifat o ana b3eed eb lahfityy

ma7ad 3araf shily 7a9aaal..

ma7ad lamas mithl el amal..

kl ebtesama mhajira .. jaat rj3aat lishifityy

o kil eldrooob elthay3a miny tindaay khu6wity

o ya re7laat elghurba? Wedaa3an ri7lityy!

O yaa far7ittyy!”

I flashed her my best smile.. and she smiled back

Ya wailyyy wailaa!

I walked closer to her and whispered in her ear: taraa walaaaht

She blushed.. oh how I love it when her beautiful cheeks become red..

I grabbed her hands and held It between mine..

Her hands were freezing! It was the end of January and; It was cold o 7athrat’ha labsa khafeef

I brought her hands closer to my lips and kissed them..

I looked her in the eye.. swimming deep into her soul..

           

“ya 3yoon el koon ghithyy bilnithar

etrikeeena athnain 3ain ta7ky li3aaain

etrkeeena eshoog makhala 7athar”

Her eyes sparkle like the shadow of the moon on the water..

Her smile brightens even the darkest days..

Her soft touch makes my heart melt..

Her beautiful hair shines like the moon and is soft like her skin..

Her voice.. a melody I want to play over and over..

I don’t ever want to see the day when I loose ghala..

Because she is the source of happiness in my life..

Because without her.. what is life really?

I remember when I was angry at ghala.. and forced my self to fall inlove with dana..

I compared dana to ghala.. and loved every similarity and loathed every difference!

I wanted dana to be a clone of ghala, because that was the only way I would’ve fallen in love with her..

I texted her the other day.. I wanted to tell her that I love ghala, since I wasn’t sure of how to label my 

relationship with dana..

Me: hala dana shlonich?

Dana: bkhair el7imdila..

Me: 3asa! Dana aby agolich shay muhim..

Dana: umm me too!!

And before I could reply she sent me another text..

Dana: abdullah I just got engaged.. fa umm yeah I think its better if we like stopped talking, you know?

Whew!

Abdullah: I sure do! I was going to tell you the same thing!

Dana: oh cool.. anyway allah ywafgik and it was great meeting you!

Abdullah: ameen wewafgich enshallah! Likewise!

Ashwa rayi7atnyy…

Our relationship was like a burden in my chest..

It always felt like I was cheating on ghala..

But know I freed myself from the guilt!

Back to ghala…

Me: ghala.. I never heard you say it

Ghala: say what?

Me: that you love me..

She blushed and lowered her head…

She smiled: abdullah.. kil shay eb wagta 7iluuu

Me: a77 chinich degarteenyy..

She giggled: hehe laa walla but I want to say it when I’m ready..

Me: yallah 9eeray “ready” bsr3a

Ghala: hehe

I removed a lock of hair from her face..

           

            “bala khoof ebniltigy.. balaa 7eera eb niltigyy..

            baltigy bi3yoonaha o 3yoonaha a7la wa6aan

o kil el aman..”

***GHALA:

Abdullah is so cute!!

I have to admit, he sure knows how to make a girl fall for him!

I mean at first I was hoping for a miracle to get me back with aziz..

But after spending time with abdullah, I swear with every word he says, he makes me love him even 

more!

He made me forget about my pain, something I thought I’d live with!

He was with me every step of the way!

He stood by my side even when I was at my worse state, wayed kubar eb 3ainy!

Unlike aziz who ran away as soon as a problem popped up! And no he wasn’t “mas7oor” at the time!

3ala 6aryy aziz..

A lot of crazy things happened in the past couple of months..

Of course when I told aziz about what noor wanted to do and then he accused me of lying I didn’t have a 

choice other than to tell his mother!

She had her doubts at first, but then she decided to call a sheikh to read for them..

Sara and aziz were in denial in the beginning, but then they started believing us the more they went to the 

sheikh

At first, Aziz was so pissed that I told his mother that he sent me angry text messages and scary threats!

But I know he didn’t mean any of it he wasn’t in his right mind!

His mother kept updating me on everything that happens to them..

The “sheikh” told them that the “si7ir” was not bad and since it was mixed with food they could easily 

recover..

So they went to him weekly and they got better day by day il7imdilla!

Anyway..

Nour called me the other day..

Nour: ahlan ghala shlonich??

She sounded very excited!

That bitch acting like she’s innocent!

Me: mnu?

Nour: ana nour al **** abaih ma3arafateeny hehe!

Me: la ma3arafetch :)

I want to rip her apart!

Nour: wee anyway im sure you do now:p

I laughed sarcastically: ee akeed ba3arfech shlon ma3arfech?

Nour: ee o e9ara7a ra7 t3arfeeny 3adel 3ugub ma yakh6ibny aziz.. I just called to ask since umm you 

know him too well 3ala goltich what should I get him for his bday?

Atwaqa3 7inchy wi9al el arth min kithir makint min9adma

7AQEEEEERRAAAA!!!!

Khaaaraa feeeha!!! Wallaah bas khal atkharaj o kilyouuum bag3ad arfaa3 3alaiha qathaya!! Akhaleeha 

t3aref shloon tkalimny eb hal 7aqara!

Me: haha eb ay 7ilm hatha elly 3azez eb yakh6ibich?

Nour: my reality.. your nightmare

Me: I don’t think so.. I hate to burst your bubble but your little schemes are over!

Nour: huh?

Me: gilt 7ag their parents entay shmsawya eb sara o aziz.. o wadohum 7ag shaikh ygra 3alaihum.. o 

they’re getting better so you should take your little dream of aziz marrying you and shove it up you’re a**

Sorry for the language bas 7araaatnyy!!!

She was quiet for a while.. and then all I heard was

6ooo6 6oo6 6oo6

haha she hung up!

I don’t think she knew about the last part!

I texted aysha

Noor tadry enna fe sheikh yegra 3ala sara and aziz?

After a couple of minutes..

Aysha: I have no idea, I haven’t talked to her we got in a fight.. but I don’t think she knows..

Me: wee a7san shtabeen feeha g6ee3a! anyway she called me today and I told her chan etsakra eb 

wayhy LOL o tadreen laish daga? Etgoly enna 3azez ebytzawajany bs aby as2ilich since u know him too 

well what should I get him for his bday? TEKHAYILAY!!

Waiting..

Aysha: ABAAAIH CHATHABA!!! Ay shaay!! Omg she’s such a bitch jad she’s the definition of that 

word aslan! But don’t worry about her.. I talked to sara ams and her parents might sue nour o niftak 

minha!

Me: siiij!!! Waay khal yan6roon lama atkharaj I want to be their lawyer aby a6ali3 7arrety feeha!!

Ya7lailha aysha she’s a good person.. etwanis!

Back to abdullaah..

Abdullah: ghala bardana?

Me: hmm.. la 3ady

Abdullah took off his coat and wrapped it around me..

Abdullah: well your hands sure are freezing!

So cute!!

Me: haha thank you! Bs al7een enta ebtistabrid!!

Abdullah: I’d freeze to death for you baby

Me: awww you’re the cutest I swear!!

Abdullah smiled: e7mm adryy

Ahh abdullah!!

He makes me feel safe!

And I swear I miss him so badly whenever he’s gone, sometimes even when he’s right in front of me..

I never want to loose him!

I used to listen to cheesy songs and read poems that talked about love..

And always laughed at how the singer loves the person he/she are singing about way too much..

They would say words like “loosing you is like living in a world with no air” or “my life would suck 

without you” or “you cut me open and I keep bleeding love”

And I thought to my self.. how could a person love to that extent! I never believed in those words..

Until I fell in love..

And experienced the pain

The laughter

The butterflies in my stomach

The chill running down my spine..

And I started to believe that these feelings are true!

Abdullah: emshay khanig3ad jbal el ba7ar

Me: yallah

He held my hand and we went and sat in front of the water..

I looked up at him..

Me: abdullah..

Abdullah: amraaay

Me: kalamt aziz? Aw did he talk to you

Abdullah: la! And why are you trying to ruin a prefect night?

Me: la bas kint bagoolik enna he called me gabil ams!

Abdullah: shyaaby??

Its true, aziz called to apologize..

Aziz: wallah asif ghala! Thalamtich ma3aay! Its just that, everything felt so real at the time! Every time I 

saw your face I was sure that you were the one I wanted to marry! I was so sure that I’m in love with 

you.. and that you are the only one!

Me: what changed that?

Aziz: I don’t know.. I started thinking about how I quickly fell in love with you and then how quickly I fell 

out of it! and I realized that what I felt for you wasn’t love.. it couldn’t be!

Me: huh?

I was confused what is he trying to say!!

Aziz: I think I only had a crush on you! Like a huge crush, because it couldn’t be defined as love.. wallah 

asif!

And then it hit me.. he’s just a young adult that rushed into wanting to marry me and then regretted it!

His friends probably brainwashed him with how evil marriage is and made him hate it!

He was being honest with me.. and I didn’t know how to reply!

Aziz: o ham asif enny ma9adagtich lama gilteely 3an elsi7ir.. I guess I was under its influence! Bs hath a 

mo 3ithir! Look ghala your one of the prettiest girls I know! O wallah alf wa7id yitmanach! You deserve 

some one better than me!

I sure do!

Where is all this drama coming from??

My life turned into a khaleeji series where all what happens is drama!

Me: so you’re saying that its over?

Aziz sighed: that sums it up.. yes!

I was quiet..

Aziz: you will always have this special place in my heart.. you left a big ---

Me: yeah ok I get it, umm bye now..

I hung up..

I can’t just sit here and listen to more of this!

Abdullah was really annoyed after I told him..

Abdullah: bas aham shay enna uhwa raa7 eb3eeed and left you for me onlyyyy

Me: hehe 9a7!

He wrapped one arm around me and brought me closer to him..

He whispered into my ear: a7ibiiich .. yallah ma9irtay “ready”?

Ahh I melted..

Me: I will be in a short while!

I wanted to change the subject..

So we started to talk about random things..

And then talked about what happened in our lives in the past year..

It was overwhelming how things have changed!

I changed, I feel like I grew a little..

Became stronger..

My life before was really boring..

It was so predictable!

I would always repeat the same routine..

Jam3a, home, hang out with friends or family..

Until I met aziz..

I felt like my life finally had a purpose!

Like I had something to smile for in the morning!

Or a great dream to experience at night!

My life wasn’t predictable anymore!

Surprises kept getting thrown at me from everywhere!

And I enjoyed it!

Until everything came to an end.. or I thought it did.

When I lost aziz, I thought that I lost all purpose in life..

I wanted my life to end then and there!

But now, as I look back, I realize how attached I was to him.. and how it killed me when this attachment 

broke.

And I could see so clearly that god can surprise you with the best gift ever, and then take it away from 

you the next day, month or year..

But god never leaves us stranded; he always replaces this gift with even a better one!

Just like the one he took from me (aziz), and the one I got in return (abdullah).

El7imdilla!!

Change can be good at times.. but can be the worst at other times.

I believe that change is important.. because what is life without change?

A cycle of the same scene being played over and over again..

And my life has experienced a lot of changes..

Unexpected changes, that brought me to the place I am today!

Things change constantly..

People leave

Other people come into your life

You loose things you love..

Or people you love..

But you learn to move past it..

And never let it get the best of you..

Never let you forget the beauty of change ..

Abdullah kept singing into my ear:

Etha 9ifalik zemanik 3il ya thamy .. eshrab gabl la y7oos el6een 9afeeha

Alwagt lo zan ya 9a7 ma damy .. ya sir3 ma ti3tirith darbik balaweha

7ata wileefk wa law hayyam bik ehyamy .. syor el ayam tjna7 bih 3awadeeha

That was true.. and it scared me..

I lifted my head and looked at abdullah..

I sat straight and turned his head towards me..

Me: promise me..

He whispered: anything..

Me: never leave me..

Abdullah: never gonna happen!

Me: just promise me please

Abdullah hugged me and whispered into my ear: I promise you, I will be with you forever to get you 

through the day and make everything OK!

A tear ran down my cheek, but I smiled nonetheless!

Me: a7ibiik.. and I will always be with you too!

Because these promises matter..

They bring people together

When suddenly everything goes wrong..

When suddenly everything becomes hard..

When suddenly everything changes..

Suddenly everything changes 30

***GHALA:

Me: huh? Ay sara?

Aysha: sara al******!! But that’s not the issue here aby agoolich shay o lazim et9adgeeeny!

Me: hmm golay..

Aysha: sara and I are friends minzimaan o we have another friend called noor..

Boring info..

Aysha: anyway noor has a HUGE crush on aziz.. kha6eebich..

Oh people are still calling him that.. “kha6eeby”

A cold laugh escaped my mouth .. as if I just heard a joke..

Aysha: umm.. khalagoolich, hathy noor hmm shlon agolich eyaha eb 6areeqa enich matin9admain????

Me: just come right out and say it..

I don’t even have the energy to be surprised anymore.. weakness is taking over me!

Aysha: ok.. so noor freaked out lama sma3at ena aziz kha6ab because she wants him for herself.. so she 

went all crazy o gamat o sawat shay I’m sure shes going to regret in the upcoming years!

Hmm, I think I just became interested in this story..

Me: shsawaat??

Aysha: s7arat sara..

Shnu?

What?

Did I hear her right?

Me: SHNU???

Aysha: eee mala7thtaay how weird sara has become?? I remember awal ma enkha6abtaw kanat 7ail 

t7ibich! O kila tsolif 3anich bs now its like she doesn’t even want to hear your name! bs hatha kila min 

esi7ir!

I was shocked!

AJFGAIEUFHBS – is exactly how I am feeling.. I just cant

Aysha: o ba3dain 7awelat tis7ar aziz but she failed so she’s going to try it again VERY SOON!

Ok now I am paralyzed.

Aysha: and you have to do something to stop her! I warned you and now its up to you how you’re going 

to act..

I felt like my throat went dry..

I wanted to answer her I swear..

I wanted to move my lips..

I wanted to find the right words..

The questions were piling up in my brain..

But she hung up before I uttered a word..

I just sat there staring at the wall in front of me..

I was hoping it would talk to me..

Tell me that its all a lie, that the man I love is not about to be brainwashed into loving some other b*tch..

But it didn’t..

My mind was throbbing, I felt like my head was going to explode..

I don’t know if I should believe her..

But the facts all say that she’s telling the truth..

I mean when I first got engaged, sara was a loving person, always smiled and and we always had a great 

time

But suddenly she started planting toxic thoughts into my brain.. and aziz’s

She wanted to separate us, and did a very good job at it!

I feel like my heart is about to jump out of my chest..  it was beating so ---

But wait..

I couldn’t just stay here and cry over my miserable fate..

I need to stop her!

I crossed my fingers and called aziz..

Lets hope he picks it up..

First ring.. no answer

Second ring.. no ---

***AZIZ:

Wow! That cupcake smelled realllyyy good!

Me: ok bs bakil wa7da o ba3dain fileeha!

I snatched the cupcake from her hands and started eating it..

Noor: haha 9adegny bitgool taby thanya

Then she winked..

Seriously? What the hell?

But she’s right.. walla kha6eera el cupcake chiny bakilhum kilhum!!

Oh wait.. my phones ringing..

Hmm ghala? Shtaby?

Well I’m going to answer because its either ghala or noor.. and believe me ghala ahwan!

I answered..

Me: alo

Silence..

Me: alo ghala?

Silence..

Me: bitrdeen wela asakra?

Ghala: e7m..

Chinha ga3da tabchy?

Ghala: umm.. aziz

Yup she’s definitely crying..

And it broke my heart..

Me: hala.. ghala laish tabchen?

What kind of question is that? Why the hell do you think she’s crying aziz!! Kila miny!

She cleared her throat: umm mu ga3da abchy.. bs aby agolik shay muhim please hear me out

Me: uhh ee akeed ..

My heart beats started to accelerate..

It reminded me of how my heart used to go crazy every time saw ghala before..

It reminded me of the happiness she brought into my life..

Ghala: aziz t3aref wa7da esimha noor? Rfejat sara?

I looked at noor who was staring at me..

I lowered the volume..

Me: ahh ee..

Ghala: well she’s a bitch..

Me: shnu??

Ghala: you have no idea the amount of trouble she’s caused..

Me: what do you mean?

Ghala: aziz! Ehya ga3da t7awel etfarig baina! Ledarajat enha …. Enha

Me: enha shnu???

Ghala: s7arat ekhitik!! And used her to play out her wicked schemes! O mu b3eeda enha tas7irik enta 

ba3ad!

Me: ghala! Entay shga3da tgolen!

Min9ijha hathy!! She’s willing to go to such extremes bs 3ashan tabeeny asame7’ha!!

Ghala: aziz kalamy wathi7!! Hathy la3ba li3ib o ma7ad yadry 3anha!

I got really angry!!

Mahagait’ha minich ya ghala!

Me: GHALA! Latibalain 3ala enaas! Te7amilay mas2oleyat aghla6ich!

I hung up!

La wichathib 3alay ashkara chithy!

Noor: hathy mnu?

I was too irritated to talk!

I grabbed another cupcake… and then another..

***ABDULLAH:

I miss ghala..

I miss her voice

Her smile..

Her eyes

Everything about her..

Not seeing her for a week while she’s in this condition scared me..

But no matter how many times I try to convince her to leave her room she wouldn’t listen!

I decided to go by her house early today..

I knocked on her door like everyday then went to sit in the living room..

I was playing with my phone when I saw her..

She walked slowly to my direction; her face filled with tears.

She looked like a ghost..

Pale

Dark circles under her eyes

Messy hair

She lost so much weight, now she’s just skin and bones

I can barely recognized the free – spirited ghala that I once knew..

As soon as I saw her I jumped out of my seat..

Me: gh-ghala??

I couldn’t believe it, is it really her?

She couldn’t have changed that much!

I walked closer to her.. then she fell into my arms

I was afraid of holding her.. she looked like she could break easily

She sobbed like a baby.. and said things that I couldn’t quite make out..

I kept shushing her and tell her that everything will be ok ..

Will it?

I hope it does…

After a while.. she slowly pulled herself away from me..

Ghala: abdullah..

She barely spoke..

Me: 3yonaa

Ghala: khalas *sniff* its over between aziz and i..

At that moment.. I wanted to jump up and down!

I wanted to celebrate!

Ghala will finally be MINE!

I was over whelmed with joy!

But I hid my smile..

Ghala was heartbroken… she wanted someone that she could count on to pull her out of this mess..

And I promised my self that it would be me!

I held her hands.. I swear it felt like I was holding a bunch of bones

Me: do you want to talk about it?

Ghala sighed: lazim agolik shay

And then she told me about noor and everything she did and how aziz reacted when he knew..

I got angry!

How dare he call ghala a liar!

Me: hal 7aywan! Wallah la roo7 a2adba!

Ghala: pls don’t, khalas he made it clear he doesn’t want me

I started shouting: e7a9ila!! Wallah el3atheem mayistahil wa7da mithlich!

Ghala stayed quiet, she was drained out of energy..

I brought her closer to me, and held her between my arms..

I whispered: I will always be here, right next to you.. anything you need you know where to look

I held her chin and turned her face so that she looked at me..

I whispered again: a7ibiiiich ya ghalaaa..

She lowered her gaze, and a tear slipped down her cheek..

I raised her head and wiped the tear

I looked her straight in the eye and started singing:

A7ibik ya rasheeg el gad

A7ibik fy ellega wil9ad

A7ibik wildmoo3 alkhad

A7ibik mhma kan elrad

O ana fy 7alty ma3thoor brabik latlooom majbor

Enta? Monaya o ma6looby..