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            “Galaw tara malik amal fe gorbaha lo yoom

            eb3id o janib darbaha o hatha ho el magsoom..”

***ABDULLAH:

after sitting with the men and chatting for a while, I realized I forgot my phone in the duwania..

so I got up and went to the duwania..

as I was walking, I saw ghala making her way to the living room opposite of me..

I swear as soon as I laid my eyes on her, its like all the feelings I tried to run away from came rushing 

back into my heart..

I could almost hear my heart screaming “WTH WERE YOU THINKING TRYING TO FORGET HER?”

And it was true, that beautiful person standing in front of me has a special place in my heart that no one 

can replace no matter how many times I convince myself to move on..

No matter how many girls I try to force myself to love..

No matter how many times everyone tells me to back off.. I don’t want to!

            “gilt etrkoony wiskito khalo el 3atab wiloom..

            gadny gheregt fy ba7raha wala 3ad efeed el 3oom!”

I want her to be happy..

I want her to have the best life..

I want her to be pleased..

And I wanted to be the one to offer her that..

Me!

Only me and no one else!

I just stood there staring at her, and she did the same..

We were quiet, but all I could hear is the sound of our hearts beating..

Or maybe it was just my heart going crazy..

She lowered her head and looked like she wanted to say something..

Ghala: e7m..

I took a step towards her.. and she took a step backwards..

Me: ghala ana ..

I took another step

And she took a step backwards..

Me: e9ara7a aby akalmich eb mawthoo3 muhim..

I took a step..

She took a step back until her back bumped into the wall..

She panicked..

I looked her straight in the eye..

I wanted her to feel what I was feeling..

I wanted her to know how much I love her..

It was like magic every time I see her face .. all I want to do is hold her in my arms

And just the thought of her marrying someone else..

Or loving someone else..

Killed me..

I swear its like these thoughts sent daggers to my heart..

“galo tara fe 7ubaha wail o asa wihmoom..

            gilt in gatalny 7ubaha 7asby tigol mar7oom”

Me: ghala a7ibich

That was certainly not what I was planning on saying.. or how I planned to say it

The word just escaped my mouth straight from my heart

She looked at me .. her eyes wide

She tried to move.. so I placed my hands on the wall a few inches above her head..

And brought my self closer to her..

I’m not going to let her walk away.. not today

She just stood there speech less..

I whispered: ghala ana asif 3ala el kalam elly gilta thak elyoom allah a3lam enny makint aq9id wala kilma 

gilt’ha.. adry ennich makh6ooba.. o adry enich et7ibeen aziz.. bs ham ana a7ibich fog ma tit9awirain! 

Entay o talah 3ayaztaw wintaw tgololy eny a7awel ansach bs wallah 9a3ba .. 9a3ba!

            “galoly ensa thikraha manta baha malzoom

            gilt ebshiro ya 3atheleen bansa letheeth enoom!”

She lowered her head..

Me: ga3d a7awel aqni3 nafsy enny ansach .. o ga3id a7awel enny ashghil nafsy 3anich.. bs wallah 

kilshay ethakirny fech! Matwaqa3 enny agdar a7ib wa7da kithir ma a7ibich al7een.

I placed my hands on her chin and raised her head..

I started singing quielty: galo btelga ghairha witrik hawaha elyoom.. gilt el3afo ya 7asideeen mabdil 

gamar binjoom!!

She was quiet.. and her silence was killing me

Me: 3ashany golay ay shay..

She sighed..

Ghala: m-madry shaghool..

Her voice was quivering as if she’s about to cry..

Ahhh her voice.. it was like melody to my ears!

But I’m sure she’s thinking about him..

It was always him and always will be..

I just don’t know how to make her change her mind..

           

“galoly ghairik 7ubaha gilt el jawab mafhoom

            dam enaha mithanya shloon a9eer ma7room”

I was just about to speak when ghala lifted her head, saw something behind me and gasped.

***AZIZ:

As I got closer to the building I heard noises..

I turned my head and saw two figures..

It was dark and I couldn’t quite point out who they were

Garrabt yamhum…. O yalaitny magarabt!!!

There they were..

Ghala, and abdullah all over her!

She saw me and gasped..

Then abdullah turned his head, saw me and stumbled backwards away from ghala

I could feel my face boiling from anger..

One second she tells me I’m the only one she loves

And the next I find her in abdullah’s arms!!

I shouted: shga3deen tsawoon?!!

Ghala: uhh aziz bas kan ga3ed egooly shay..

I widened my eyes: la walla!!! Ya3ny elly begolich shay yalzig fech chithy!

Abdullah: aziz wallah ent fahim el mawtho3 ghala6

I swear if I stood here any longer I’m going to kill him..

Me: 9a7 kalamik.. kint fahim el mathoo3 ghala6 lakin al7een fahamt khi6atkum!

I turned around and headed to my car..

I could hear ghala calling my name.. but I ignored her..

I just can’t take her drama anymore..

***GHALA:

This could not be happening!

I was afraid of loosing him before.. and if anything I’m sure I lost him know

And lost my mind as well..

I didn’t feel like shouting at abdullah..

I didn’t feel like crying over aziz..

All I could feel was the numbness

It started in the pit of my stomach and made its way to my heart..

I’m sure what he saw today confirmed all his doubts..

And you know what the funny thing is?

Well actually its anything but funny..

It’s that every time he doubts me, he gets angry and runs away

He starts dodging me any chance he gets and the first thing he thinks about is backing out..

I don’t know why he is so quick to judge.. I mean aside from what happened today, I did nothing to make 

him angry or to make him doubt me.

But for some reason, that’s all he’s doing these days!

Now, I’m starting to hesitate and look at everything in a different light..

We’re just engaged, and every time a problem comes up he runs the other way.

What if we get married and start the real deal, how am I going to depend on him?

Or trust that he will be with me at all times..

Or that he’ll even trust me!

My mind was running in all kinds of places..

Abdullah wrapped his hands around mine.

I was lost in thought but he brought me back to my depressing reality.

Abdullah whispered: I’m so sorry…

I just looked at him emotionless..

He slowly brought me closer to him, and hugged me

And like the stupid girl that I was, I let him.

     "bagthy eleyaly antithir 9abir 3ala el magsoom

     mit3alig eb 6arf el amal yimkin yjeeny noom..."

***NOOR:

hmm.. there is something wrong here!

Aziz still didn’t call me or asked about me!

He’s supposed to fall madly in love with me right after he ate the cupcake!

I decided to call me bff Aysha..

She’s is the only person that knows about the “si7ir” ..

Although it was too obvious that she is a hundred percent against what I did, I still tell her every update

I just need to talk to someone!

I called her..

Me: aloo

Aysha: hala noor

Me: hala feech waay ayoosh aziz still didn’t call me!!

Aysha: ya3ny entay shnu mitwaq3a esawy!!

Me: madry ys2al sara 3any o yitqadamly 3ala 6ool!

Aysha: lata7lmeen wayed!

Me: wallah shfeech the cupcake I gave him can feeha si7ir so obviously that’s what he’s going to do 

sooner or later!

Aysha: way noor please latablsheeny eb suwalfich el ma9kha hathy!

Me: iff enzain maminich fayda!

We hung up..

She hated what I did and I respect her opinion..

But she just doesn’t get how much I need aziz to love me!

So I decided to call that old lady “um m7amad” (who gave me the si7ir) and ask her what went wrong!

It started ringing..

First ring.. no answer

Second ring.. still no answer..

Third ri---

Um m7amad: aloo

Me: aloo esalamu 3alaikum!

Um m7amad: wa3alaikum esalam min ma3ay?

Me: ana noor al***** thekarteny?

Um m7amad: ee hala fecch bnayty!

Me: bs kint bas2ilich.. ana sawait nafs elly giltely 3anna o khalait el walad yakil elly 6ebakhta o 7a6ait fe 

elsi7ir .. bs lail7en masawa shay.. ya3ny ma taqadamly!

Um m7amad: hmm entay shnu 6ibakhteela?

Me: sawaitla cupcakes!

Um: aha o cham wa7da kala?

Me: umm wa7daa!

She continued talking .. and I did not like what she said!!

Me: *GASP* AY SHAY!!!

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***AZIZ:

ok that was weird..

shfeeha hathy!! Mu chithy egi6oon 3umurhum 3ala elnas!

O hathy wallah ghareebaa.. elwa7eeda min rabi3 sara ely etha shft’ha kila alg’ha ga3da tkhiz! O kila 

tibosam o etsawy 7arakat

But I have to admit .. the cupcake tasted heavenly!!

At least there is one good thing about her.. bs ham madry laish sara trafij hal ashkal..

 Before I saw sara’s friend I was focused on calling ghala and apologizing and tell her that I love her..

But now.. I don’t even feel like reaching into my pocket to pull out my phone.

***NOOR:

So I have had a crush on aziz since the first time I saw him.. picking up his sister when we were in grade 

9..

He was SO HOT!!! I can’t even begin to describe!

So I decided to befriend sara.. in order to get closer to her brother!

We started talking and going out and I actually started liking her.. but I never forgot the main purpose of 

my friendship with her..

I always dropped hints about her brother but never really came out to and said it..

But after I heard that he was getting engaged I panicked and I had to act fast..

So I went to a place of an old woman a friend once told me about..

And I told her about my problem.. and that some b*tch was going to steal aziz from me..

She immediately gave me the answer ..

She give me a bag filled with powder and told me to combine it with whatever I’m baking/cooking.. and 

make the girl aziz was engaged to eat it..

I took her advice since I was desperate.. but I made sara eat the cupcakes I baked using the powder 

because I couldn’t reach ghala.

And yes if you all haven’t figured it out yet, ana si7art sara.. it was the only way I can order her around 

and make her turn on her brother!

I’m sick and tired of hearing her talk about ghala and how she loves her!

 and I’m planning on doing the same to aziz..

I went inside the house and headed to sara’s room..

I flopped on her bed as she got out of the bathroom..

Sara: hii

Me: ahlan!

Sara: I think I have bad news..

I sat up straight: shnu ba3ad? Etha mo 3an 3azeez maby asma3

Sara: la its about him.. he umm ghala and aziz are not breaking up

Me: SHNU?

Sara: tawa kalamta and he was like I love her o she’s the only girl he’s going to umm…

Me: going to shnu???

Sara: uhh.. marry

What??? NOO!!

He doesn’t know what he’s saying!

But I have nothing to worry about, my cupcake will make him fall in love with me for sure!!!

Me: hmm we’ll see about that!

***GHALA:

The days passed until it was the weekend..

My mother told everyone 3an ta2jeel el milcha so my aunts decided to throw a gathering in the shalaih..

Aziz’s family was coming and my family 3ashan ta3aruf since there is time.

He called me the other day telling me that he loved me and that he was sorry..

But I couldn’t feel the sincere apology I was waiting for!

I brushed it off, all that’s important is that aziz and I are on the same page!

***ABDULLAH:

Since what happened between me and ghala the other day, talah kept telling me things like “aziz khalas 

7awel tinsaha..” or “allah mu katebha min ni9eebik ebtelga ghairha”

Its like everything is telling me to move on, except for my heart!

I’m trying to convince my self that I don’t love her anymore.. but I cant fool my heart!

That’s why I spent the past days talking to dana and getting to know her better.. so I can move on..

I think I’m starting to have feelings for her!

But the weird thing is, everything dana does reminds me of ghala!

And I always feel guilty, as if I’m betraying ghala.. and dana felt the same too

Well, ghala made her choice.. and I think I have the right to make my own choices too!

But still the nagging feeling wont stop.. I felt like I had to do something!

Like I had to apologize to ghala!

And that’s what I decided to do tonight in the gathering!

My phone’s ringtone interrupted my thoughts..

It was aziz..

Baaih minzimaan mo mkalma!! Walah walaht 3alaih!

Mu 3adla nkhaly bint etfareg baina!

I pressed answer..

Me: halla wallah

Aziz: hala feeek 3baid shakhabrik shidniya feek?

Me: walla bkhair!! Bs fagdik!

Aziz: ana akthaar ya bu najem!

Me: meta nshoofik??

Aziz: elyoom baye shalaihkum enshallah 3ashan el … elta3aruf

For a second I forgot the reason that made us part for so long..

Me: ee.. ana ba3ad ashoofik enshallah!

Aziz: enshallah yallah tamerny 3ala shay

Me: salamtik yal 7abeeb

As soon as we hung up dana called me..

Me: halaa danaa

Dana: hala feek!

Me: shlonich?

Dana: el7imdila bkhair u?

Me: bkhair damich eb khair!

Dana: haa sh3indik el yoom??

Me: haha shaklich ma3indich salfa.. baroo7 eshalaih

Dana: haha waay wedy lo e7na eb London chan al7een 6ala3na!

Me: eee shftay shloon!

Dana suddenly got excited: laish mani6la3!!

Me: la yuba shfeech yanaitay

Dana: waay walla malaitt!! O maly khilg aroo7 zwara!

Me: la la te3awithay min eblees o ro7ay lizwara o wanseehum..

We continued talking .. wallah hal bnaya mu 9a7ya :p

***AZIZ:

ya salam walla lail7een mishithyy el cupcakes malot rfejat sara!

They’re so addictive!

3ad thak elyoom awal ma radait el bait sa2alt sara etha fee bs khalesaw!

Maku ella agol 7ag swair tgol 7ag rfeejat’ha tsaweely!

Elmuhim.. I was getting ready to go to the shalaih..

Wallah maly khilg!!

Yayny e7sas ghareeeb! Kilish maly khilg ghala o maly khilg abarerlaha elly 9ar..

Akeed ebteg3ad etsa2ilny malyoon su2al o mara7 enkhalis!

La7tha 3azeez shga3ed tgool!!

Hathy ghala shloon maly khilg’ha!

La la I’m acting weird today..

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It was a long ride and we finally reached the shalaih

We were late!!

My parents, sisters and I got out of the car, and went to the living room where everyone was gathered..

And the whole time I felt nervous.. and a little sad..

I have no idea why I’m being that way!

I searched for ghala in the room but she was no where to be found *sigh of relief*

Lafait 3ala ereyayeel o salamt 3alaihum..

Ga3adt o kint ga3ed adawer abdullah.. makan mawjood

Gilt aroo7 eduwaniya akeed eshabab ga3den hnaak!

I got up and excused my self..

I went outside to the hall that leads to the duwania

I was humming to myself..

And my eyes darted right and left incase I see abdullah or .. ghala

As I got closer to the building I heard noises..

I turned my head and saw two figures..

It was dark and I couldn’t quite point out who they were

Garrabt yamhum…. O yalaitny magaratbt!!!

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***GHALA:

I missed my class.. I wasn’t in the mood for jam3a anyway!

I went to my parents’ room to talk to my mother

I didn’t want to tell her about the fight, I didn’t want to scare her over nothing..

Because enshallah I will fix things with aziz!

My eyes were puffy and my nose was red from all the crying..

As soon as I entered the room..

Mama: haw shfeech 3asa ma shar??

I wanted to stay strong.. I kept swallowing back my tears that formed a lump in my throat..

I smiled: la mafeeny shay bs umm tawny ga3da min enoom.. o bagolich shay

Mama looked at me suspiciously: goolay sh3indich?

I told her I wanted to postpone the milcha and the reasons behind it..

Mama: weee akeed qa9abtaay el rayal!

Me: uhwa makan rathy awal shay bs ethahir fakar bilmawthoo3 o ghayar raya.. fa pls golay 7ag 3amaty o 

khalaty enna ajalnaha

Ashwa she didn’t ask too many questions.

Mama: enshallah akalimhum..

But she was still looking at me suspiciously..

I walked out of the room to hear my mobile ring..

It was talah

I picked It up..

Me: aloo

Talah: abaaih ghala entay shgayla 7ag abdullah?

I was annoyed: shnu?? Talah cham marra gitlich enna I love aziz?? But you still go behind my back and 

set me up with your brother!! Fa latloomeeny etha gitla shay yjra7a!

Talah was quiet for a second: entay mu gadra tistaw3ibain uhwa shkithir e7ibich! I mean his eyes says it 

all. I’ve never seen eyes light up the way his do when he see’s you! I just couldn’t refuse it when he asked 

me to invite you all to breakfast just so he can talk to you!

I was quiet.. and confused

I mean what am I supposed to do?

I can’t just stop loving aziz and start loving abdullah..

Its not that easy.. and I don’t want that to happen!

***ABDULLAH:

I was so pissed at ghala!

Hmm I think I should thank her for helping me move on!

Edinya mo wagfa 3alaiha.. and I can get any girl I want!

Suddenly dana popped into my mind..

I haven’t talked to her in a while

I decided to call her..

Me: aloo

Dana: ahlan

Me: shloonich?

Dana: bkhair and u?

Me: bkhair damich eb bkhair!

-- silence --

me: so hows life?

Dana: umm abdullah

Me: shfeech?

Dana: you’re my friends’ cousin!

Me: shnu?

Hathy shga3da tkharb6!

Dana: ghala al ****** does that name ring a bell?

Radaina 3ala ghala?

Me: ee o shnu ya3ny?

I got angry again..

Funny, I used to hear ghala’s name before and I would instantly smile.. and now all I feel is anger

Dana: madryy ya3ny I don’t think she would like it if she knew about us!

I laughed sarcastically: haha la sadgeeny she wouldn’t care :)

Dana: but it just doesn’t feel right..

What’s up with girls rejecting me today?

Me: hmm khalas 3ala ra7tich..

We hung up..

A few minutes later she bbmed me..

Dee:

I’m sorry didn’t mean to blow you off like that x

Abdullah Al*****:

Its ok

And then we continued our conversation on bbm..

***AZIZ:

I thought I heard someone talking in front of my room..

I got out to check who it was and I found sara, she was talking to someone on the phone..

Sara: hehe he’s all yours ;) .. eee.. hehe okk

And she hung up..

She turned around and saw me..

I swear I could see the color drain from her face..

She widened her eyes and gasped..

Her voice shook: enta min meta hny???

Me: tawny yay shfeech khtara3tay chinich shayfa yiny

Sara sighed a sigh of relief.. she placed her hand on her heart and smiled

Sara: madry khara3tny

Me: aha

Before I entered my room..

Sara: la7tha aziz al7een bitkansiloon el milcha???

For some reason she was excited

I just looked at her and went into my room..

I didn’t want to answer her because I honestly don’t know the answer!

She asked again..

Me: la mara7 enkansilha!

She was smiling the whole time but as soon as I said my last sentence her face fell and her smile turned 

into a frown..

Sara: way hathy lail7een ga99a 3alaik wenta m9adeg’ha??!

I raised my head and looked at her.. in shock!

What? Where is all this coming from!!

When I first told sara I was getting engaged she was the happiest person in the world!

And I remember how she couldn’t shut up about how awesome ghala was when she first met her..

She kept telling me “wayyy ashwa thoqik 7ilu! She’s beautiful inside out!”

And then a couple of weeks later ..

She turns into this!

A hating sister in law!

Did ghala do something to hurt her?

Or did she find something about ghala that I didn’t know?

La musta7eel! Ghala couldn’t hurt a fly!

Me: sara sh’hal 7achy?? Entay shfeech karha libnaya??

Sara: bs a7is you can find other girls who are better than her!

Me: no! I will never find another girl who will love me the way ghala does, unconditionally. Fa law 

sama7tay ba6lay min 7arakatich hathy o tekalimay 3adel lana she’s the only girl I’m going to marry!

Well, I guess I have made my decision.. ghala was and will always be the one!

***NOUR:

aah finally I reached sara’s house!

Correction: my future husband’s house!! :D

I can’t wait till he proposes!!

I’m going to throw the biggest most wonderful wedding in the history of weddings!

Hmm.. I probably should start looking for wedding gowns!

I arrived at their house..

I grabbed the box of cupcakes that I baked especially for my hubby and got out of the car..

I was just about to open the door.. when aziz got out of the house..

I just stood there and stared at every feature in his face..

HE IS SO HANDSOME I WANT HIM TO BE MINE!

And he stared back..

He was right in front of me.. If only I could reach out my hands and touch him..

He looked at the ground

Aziz: esalam

Me: wa3alaikum esalam..

I shoved the cupcakes in front of his face..

I have to start a conversation!

Me: tefathal taby wa7da?

I was smiling like an idiot

He just looked at me..

Hmmmm I’m sure he finds me attractive.. I mean who doesn’t?

Aziz: la mashkora

He tried to go around me but I blocked his path..

Me: la please ekhith ana msaweet’hum

Aziz: uhhh

Me: jarib wa7da o goly rayik :D

Aziz: ok..

He took a cupcake..

Aziz: mashkora..

He tried to leave again but I blocked him.. I have to see him eat it!

Me: la7thaa ekilha al7een o tell me rayik

Aziz: wallah shab3an

I pouted trying to give him the puppy eye look..

Me: pleaseee

Aziz: e7m.. ok

He took a bite, and started chewing..

Good.. it was important for me to see him eating the cupcake..

So I can make sure that my plan will work!

Wanna know what it is?

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***GHALA:

I went back home and called aziz immediately..

Me: aloo

Aziz: zain 9ar 3indich wagt edigeen..

I could sense from his tone that he was angry..

Me: wallah kint nasya mobily bil bait!!

Aziz: naseeta bil bait wela matabeen tyebena ykharib ga3ditich ma3a abdullah?

What?? Why is he talking like this!

Me: haw aziz 6ab3an la ya3ny lo kan 3indy chan radait 3alaik 3ala 6ool!

Aziz: o ba3dain ana bas2ilich shnu bethab6 3elaqtich ma3a abdullah? Gilna cousin bs mu kil ma akalmich 

algach weya!

Its like he was talking and not hearing what I was saying..

Like he only wanted to believe what’s in his head and not the truth!

Me: shqasdik?

Aziz: su2aly kan wathi7..

Me: shfeeek aziz? Laish ga3id etkalimny chithy!! Chinik shak enna fe shay bainy o bain abdullah!

Aziz: la bas abeech twath7eely el 3elaqa elly bainkum.. madry entay goleely fe shay ekhaleeny ashik?

UGH!! He was being so cold! His words sent chills down my spine! This right here is not the aziz that I 

fell in love with! He was being doubtful and angry!

Could it be?

Was sara really telling me the truth when she said that he was doubting our relationship?

No it couldn’t be!

Me: aziz 7abeeby there is nothing to worry about! I told you he’s like a brother to me nothing more!

Aziz: hmm..

I wanted to change the subject! I didn’t want to believe that he actually thinks that there is something 

between abdullah and I!

I mean sure abdullah loves me.. well not anymore I guess .. but I didn’t do anything to ruin my 

relationship with aziz!

Me: enzain kint ga3da afaker 3an elmilcha ---

Aziz: kaifich ajlay etha taben

Me: umm.. ok akeed?

Aziz: ee

Me: hmm shilly ghayyar rayik eb hasur3a?

Aziz: khala9 3ad al7een ghayart raye mala da3y ta7qeq!

Me: waay aziz latzifnyy!! Can’t I have a conversation with you??

Aziz: hmm I think you’d prefer having a conversation with someone else..

Oh my god! I cannot believe him!! Mu9er enna fe shay bainy o bain abdullah and I’m sure sara has 

something to do with it!

Me: ma9adgik! Well you know what I guess sara was right! We should reconsider this relationship!

Aziz: I guess she is!

I froze in my place.

What? Did I hear him right?

Did he just agree with me on ending this relationship?

I guess sara was right all along..

He did have cold feet.. and he has no better way to say it except to pin it on abdullah..

And accusing me of having feelings for him..

It was overwhelming.. knowing that the best thing that happened to you in years is coming to an end.

unexpectedly …

It was sad knowing that your first love is rejecting you.. when he promised that he wouldn’t, and for no 

apparent reason at all.

Its sad to find out that the person you thought you knew and trusted turns out to be someone that will 

eventually hurt you..

And the pain becomes magnified, it becomes unbearable.. when the one causing the pain means the world 

to you..

A tear rolled down my cheek.. and then another followed signaling the other tears to fall as well.

I just sat their weeping.. with the phone trembling on my ears

I was weeping silently, trying my best to not make it obvious..

We were quiet.. and I could here him breathing over the phone.

He was breathing heavily.. maybe he was tearing as well..

Maybe all of this is a dream.. because it sure is too good to be true!

But maybe I don’t want this to end..

I didn’t think of the end.. I didn’t know that It would be so soon..

And over the silliest problem..

But, I will not let this be the end.. I’m going to have to fight even if I was fighting solo.

I need to save what we have left.

Aziz: ghala.. I have to go akalmich ba3ad shway

He hung up.. he sounded panicked!

I dropped my phone and continued sobbing into my pillow..

And kept convincing my self that this is not the end..

***SARA:

Yes!

I think aziz is convinced that ghala wants to back out!

And after what I just heard.. I think my work here is done! :D

But a part of my brain keeps telling me that what I’m doing is wrong..

And the other part is numb..

Its like I have to do this even though I don’t want to..

Like there’s a force controlling me.. speaking my words.. acting my act of betrayal towards my brother, 

and I kind of enjoy it..

I called noor to tell her that our plan worked!

Me: hello!! Guess what??

Noor: plss aby asma3 khabar 7iluuu

Me: eee aziz and ghala are breaking up!!

Noor: 9IIJ???? CHATHABAA I CANT BELIEVE IT FINALLLYYY!!!!

Me: hehe he’s all yours ;)

Noor: waaay yallah aby aye baitkum is he there?

Me: eee

Noor: ok bakshakh o baye 3ashan lama yshoofny yin3ijib feeny o ehid hal khaysa ghala

Sara: hehe ok..

Let me tell you a little about noor.. she has short black hair with bangs

She’s pale white and very skinny

She’s medium height with a baby face.. she was cute not very pretty

She had a crush on aziz a long time ago.. and always wanted to catch his attention..

But as soon as she heard that he got engaged to ghala.. its like hell broke loose

She got really angry and upset.. and started telling me that she loved my brother and wanted him for 

herself..

At first I was shocked .. I mean my brother is getting married and I was really happy for him

But then she started planning on stealing him from ghala.. I opposed at first and we got into fights

But then I joined in on her little schemes, not willingly though something lured me in .. and as time passed 

I started enjoying it..

And hopefully our hard work pays off! And she gets what she always wanted: Aziz.

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***AZIZ:

I woke up the next morning exhausted..

I hardly slept..

Did ghala really make up that lie?

Hmm no she would never do that!

I’m sure sara is over reacting..

Or just misunderstood the whole thing!

And I was thinking..

If postponing the milcha meant that much to ghala then so be it..

Mara7 akharib 3alaiha bi3nadyy..

I decided to call her and tell her that I agree..

***GHALA:

it was the first time aziz gets this angry at me..

ifff!! Im feeling guilty!

He’s right! I was so selfish! I decided everything forgetting that it was his night too!

You know what? If he doesn’t want to postpone it then we wont..

Talah was calling me..

Me: alooo

Talah: halaa! Shlonech?

Me: bkhaiir entay shakhbarich?

Talah: tamam! Sim3ay breakfast at my house al7een o salma and hala are on their way yallah ta3alay!

Hmm my class was at 1 so I had time..

Me: okk yallah al7een aye..

***ABDULLAH:

ghala was giving me the silent treatment, and it killed me!

She doesn’t answer my calls and when she does, she turns it into a very formal phone call!

So I asked talah to invite the girls over so I can talk to ghala alone..

That’s the only way she’ll ever talk to me!

I was waiting in my room..

The seconds went by like hours..

I kept calling talah asking her if ghala arrived yet..

And with my last call she told me that ghala arrived.

Me: enzain ana banzil ta7at.. entay wilbanat g3daw bl7adeeqa o khalay ghala edish dakhil 3ashan 

akalimha

Talah: walla ra7 tithba7ny ghala bs okk..

After a while I heard talah and ghala’s voices.. so I ambushed her in the small living room..

Ghala was talking and then stopped and looked at me confused..

Then talah smiled an awkward smile and practically ran out of the room..

Ghala looked at her and widened her eyes.. im sure she was angry

She was about to leave when I held her hand..

Me: ghala!! La7tha bakalmich!

Ghala: abdullah please hidny!

I let her go..

Me: ghala! Laish matrideen 3alay lama adig 3alaich? O matrdeen 3alay eb bbm? Shda3wa tara many 

thab7ich ana!

Ghala: 3abdullah meta ebtefham enna ana batzawaj u had a chance to tell me elly bitgoola al7een gabil la 

yakh6ibny 3azeez but u decided visiting London was a better idea!!

I just stared at her..

Looked at how cute she was when she got angry

And then listened to her words..

I was shocked!

Me: ya3ny.. y3ny kntay ra7 tirthain feeny lo kint kha6bich gabil aziz?

***AZIZ:

I kept calling ghala nonstop but she didn’t answer!

Is she angry about yesterday!!

Shda3wa!

I asked sara to try and call her..

And still she wouldn’t answer!

I started to worry!

Me: sara digay 3ala a7ad min rabi3ha? Her cousins ay shay?

Sara: ok a3aref raqam salma her cousin

Me: ok digay 3alaiha!!

Sara called salma..

Sara: aloo.. hala shlonech? Haha ana sara al***** ma3arafteeny? Haha hala feech!! Bkhairr entay 

shlonich?

Me: MU WAGTICH SUWALIF SI2LEEHA KHAL9EENY!!

She gave me a look and continued..

Sara: enzain sim3ay wain ghala?? Ee .. ahh okk.. ahaa .. ok mashkoora lana aziz ga3ed edig 3alaiha o mo 

rathya tsheela.. ee ga3da ma3aa.. ok khalas mashkoora yallah bye!

Me: ga3da ma3a mnu? :O

Sara: way ga3da ma3a abdullah minsijik bitrid 3ala mobilha!

Me: o laish matrid ballah?

Sara: madryy ya3ny elbanat mityam3een o ehya hadat’hum o ga3da ma3a abdullah!! Akeed fe shay….

I got really angry!

Me: ENTAY SHFECHH?? YANAITAAY?? GHALA WAYED 6AY7AA MIN 3AINICH!! SIM3AY 

IN GILTAY 3ANHA HAL 7ACHY MARRA THANYA YA WAILICH!

I was angry because sara kept dissing ghala every chance she got!

And tried to put toxic ideas into my head!

I mean, I know ghala and abdullah were close… but no she couldn’t be in love with him!!

Waai3 wallah sara ga3da tkhaleeny afaker eb ashya malha da3y!

***GHALA:

abdullah: ya3ny.. y3ny kntay ra7 tirthain feeny lo kint kha6bich gabil aziz?

No .. no I didn’t mean it like that!

Me: hmm laa.. I meant enna laish yay tgol a7ibich al7een? U had plenty of chances before! O please 

abdullah I have to go!

I rummaged through my bag looking for my phone.. only to realize I forgot it at home! Iff!!

Abdullah looked at me strangely!

Abdullah: GHALA! I didn’t realize how madly I was in love with you! Every time I talked to you or 

hung out with you I felt happy! Like you bring out the best in me! O kila a7is enna maby el wagt ymur lama akoon ma3ach! Bs mate9awart enny kint a7ibich! O makint adry shnu uhwa el7ub a9lan! Bs 3ugub 

salfat 6alal o 3azeez.. esta3wabt enna maby aziz yakhthich minny!! Maby wala a7ad yakhich!

He came closer to me and held my hand..

Abdullah: ghala 3ashany fihmeeny.. wallah galby yi7tirig blyoom alf mara! Kil mathikart ennich 

bitizawijain aziz!

I was overwhelmed..

My face started burning up.. that was too much!

And I didn’t know what to do!!

He was telling me how much he loved me and all I can think about was aziz!

I looked down.. I didn’t know how to make him understand that I love him.. but I love aziz more! And I 

couldn’t leave aziz .. I just cant!

Me: abdullah.. im sorry I have to go..

I turned around to leave..

He grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him aggressively !

His face was inches away from mine!

He whispered through clenched teeth.. it was obvious he was pissed!

Abdullah: laish! Laish etsaween feny chithy!! Tara edinya mo wagfa 3alaich entay! Kil makalamtich 

gltely sorry o baro7 o aziz o madry shnu! Yuba khalas zain! Roo7ay o allah y7afthich!

I just stared at him ..

My eyes began to tear..

Abdullah: I’m sure that I will find another girl that I will love.. and that will love me back!

He walked away .. his shoulder bumped into mine as he left

I just looked at the place where he stood .. I couldn’t believe what he said..

How could he hate me that fast!!

And it was so easy for him to do!!

I don’t think he ever loved me!

I rushed outside for my car .. and I had to pass by the girls since they were outside too

Salma ran after me..

Salma: ghalaaa!! La7thaa bakalmich!

Me: na3am?

She looked at me skeptically

Salma: shfeech??

Me: mafeeny shay salma!

Salma: umm sim3ay sara tawa dagat 3alay!

I sighed not interested: mnu sara..

Salma: 7amatich!!

I looked at her: shnu taby?

Salma: tgool ga3da edig 3alaich o entay matsheleena!

I panicked: o entay shglteelaha??

Salma: gitlaha enna entay ga3da ma3a abdullah!

My eyes popped out!

Me: ayshay!! Laishhh???

Salma was confused: so shnu ya3ny etha gtlaha?

Me: waay sara al7een bitkabir elmawthoo3 o btgool 7ag aziz o broo7na ams mit’hawsheen!!

Salma: haw! O laish mashiltay mobilich lama dagaw 3alaich?

Me: naseeta bil bait!!!

We looked at each other..

Salma was confused..

And I was scared

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***GHALA:

I looked at sara confused..

Me: shgal?

Sara: la magal shay bs kan ga3ed efaker blmawthoo3.. bs 3ady 7abebty lathaygeen khilgich all guys turn 

out to be the opposite of what we think they are..

She gave me a tight smile.

She does realize that she’s talking about her own brother right?

Narfizatny 7aail.. shes dropping bombs on me eb kil borood!

I finished my food quickly and told her we had to leave..

I dropped her off and went home..

I laid on my bed.. its been a long and exhausting day..

Does aziz really think that we rushed into this?

Does he want to break off the engagement?

Does he not love me anymore??

My heart was slamming in my chest.. all the ugly thoughts paid a visit to my mind at that instant..

Why did sara have to tell me all this?

Now everything she said will be engraved in my brain!! I couldn’t get it out even if I tried.. just the 

thought of aziz considering backing away from this hurts me!

But no! its all in my head! Aziz never mentioned anything about us rushing into marriage and I think that 

sara didn’t really know what she was talking about!

I was so tired so I decided to take a nap before going to Raneem’s

***ABDULLAH:

Still no reply from ghala..

Its like she completely blocked me out of her life!

But I’m not going to loose hope..

There is still a chance for ghala to change her mind and make her choose me!

My phone beeped.. it was dana

Dee:

Heyy life saver!

Abdullah Al*****:

Hala wala.. loool ay life saver?

Dee:

Don’t be so humble you know who I’m talking about:p

Abdullah Al*****:

Hahah of course I do! Shlonich? Shaklich fathya:p

Dee:

Hehe bkhair enta shakhbarik? Laa ba3ad shway babadel baro7 gathering eb bait rifeejty! Minziman mu 

shayfat’hum!

Abdullah Al*****:

Eee yallah have fun! Magilteely shlon last first day of jam3a?

Dee:

Waay it was exhausting o kilish mawalaht 3alaiha o I can’t wait to graduate!!

We continued talking until it was time for her to go..

***GHALA:

I woke up in a rush!!

I quickly showered and changed

I carried the macaroon box I bought from Laduree and left..

I arrived at raneem’s and went inside..

Dala e6ereej hehe

I went downstairs to see raneem, lulu, dana and Farah.. the whole gang was here

I ran to them and hugged them! Waay walhana 3alaihum!

Raneem and I were in the same school so our friendship goes way back..

and we befriended dana, lulu and farah in uni!

Farah: wainech entay matbayneeen!

Lulu: eee wallah 6afitich London mu 7ilwa bidoonich!

Me: aww wallah kint aby aye bs magidart!

We talked and started catching up on things..

And then I broke the news..

Me: I got engaged!!!

I blushed

The girls started congratulating me and hugging me asking me all kinds of questions .. mnu? Meta 

elmlcha? Is he cute? Lol

And then dana started talking..

Dana: abaih I met the cutest guy in London 3ugub ma radaitaw!!

The girls and I: MNUUU??

Dana: he was with me on the plane.. ba3dain 6ala3 ma3ay bil hotel ba3ad o shfta eb Selfridges fa salami 

3alaih!

Me: shaku msalma 3al rayal??

Dana: madryy kint 6al3a o uhwa dash o wayhy eb wayha so I had to say something!

Farah: shismaa??

Dana: Abdullah Al*****

What?

Did I hear that right?

Abdullah? My Abdullah?

I mean.. my cousin?

Me: la7tha shismaa????

Dana repeated the name: laish et3arfeena?

Me: HE’S MY COUSIN!! Ukhoo talah tathkreenha?

Dana wayiha en9ifag: abaaih chathaba!

The girls started laughing!

Lulu: lool u have a crush on ghala’s cousin!!!

Dana: chub makint adry!!

Wayeha 9ar a7mar she was embarrassed..

Ghala: hahah how did you have a crush on him?? Bs shfteh mara wa7da!

Dana lowered her head: actually no.. we kinda talk on bbm..

WHAT???

Ma9adig!!

For some odd reason I got angry..

And dana sensed that.,

Dana: bs we’re just friends wallah he doesn’t know I have a crush on him!! O ghala latgoleela!

As if bagoola!!

Me: 6ab3an mara7 agoola! But the question is.. does he like you?

I was afraid to here the answer..

Dana: la matwaqa3 y3ny.. wallah madry china la

Me: plss aby jumla mufeeda!

Dana: la la!

Hmm she was hiding something but I let it go..

We changed the subject and started talking till the night came to an end..

I had a great time! Despite Dana’s news, my night was perfect!

On my way home the party planner, manal, called..

Her voice was shaky..

Manal: ghala.. I have news for you

Me: good or bad??

Manal: bad….

My heart sank..

Me: shnuuu sh9ar ba3ad?

Manal: the flowers and some of the sweets you ordered couldn’t be delivered on time..

My eyes popped out..

Me: WHAT????

Manal: and the tailor is not able to finish your dress before the party..

Wallah el3atheem baghait ad3am!

WTH?

She tells me this now?? 1 week before the milcha!!!

What the hell do I do!!

Manal: I’m so sorry ghala!! These mishaps rarely happen! and I prepared alternative desserts and flowers 

that you can order..

 Me: and what about my dress??

My eyes teared..

Manal: wallah madry ghala.. your dress situation is out of my hands.. I can only control food and 

decoration!!

Me: khalas I’ll think about it and call you back!

This couldn’t be happening!!

***AZIZ:

Kint tawny rad el bait min el duwania..

7ady ta3baan enkaraft elyoom!!

I went into my room and left the door open..

I jumped on my bed 7ata maly khilg abadel..

My phone rang..

LAA maly khilg atkalam..

It was ghala so I had to answer!

Me: hala walla

Ghala: aziz! There’s a problem!

Me: shisalfa 3asa ma shar?

Ghala: bin2ajil el milcha laih el shahar el yay!!

Me: SHNU?? LAISH???

Ghala told me about the flowers and her dress..

Ghala: ana kint mfakra en2ajilha sboo3 bs ahaly mara7 ekonon mawjooden o maygdron yg3don .. o they 

can only come back a month from now!! O e9ara7a abeehum ekonon mawjoden!

Me: enzain ghala mala da3yy.. 6ulbay ward thany o shtiray ay nafnoof thany!!

Ghala: laaaa mabyy aziz ana mratba kilshay o mkha6i6a mabyy shay halshay ekharib 3alay!! I want 

everything to be perfect!

Me: nothing can be perfect!! Lazim e9eer fe 3eyoob!

Ghala: aziz shda3waa its just a month! I need it please! O el7afla ma7foofa we still have time to tell 

everyone 3an eta2jeel!!

Me: ghala 3ashany khalay edala3 3anich mala salfa en2ajil!

I was angry!!

Shnu et2ajil 3ashan ward o madry shnu! E6agag e6ig elward!

Ghala: aziz!!! Eshda3waa ana makansalt el 7afla bs ba2ajilha!!!

Me: that’s the problem you decided everything by yourself ou akher shay yaya ta6lbeen raye? Ghala maly 

khilg al7een, akalmich bacher bye!

I hung up..

7ady mitnarfiz!!

Yaytny 3ala akher shay tgoly ba2ajil o qa9ib artha!

Sara came into my room and sat on my bed..

Me: saro wallah maly khilgich entay ba3ad!

Sara: laish shisalfa.. laish ghala taby et2ajil? 3ashan el ward?

I ran my hands through my hair.. and just stared at her waiting for her to leave

Sara: y3ny shda3wa she didn’t have to make up a lie 3ashan et2ajil!! Elyom el party planner mkalmat’ha 

o gayla enna everything is ready!

I sat up straight..

Me: shdarach entay?

Sara: 6ala3t ma3aha elyoom r7na 360.. o kalimat’ha..

Me: mit2akdaa???

She got up and walked to the door then turned around..

Sara: ee mt2akdaa.. sorry to burst your bubble, but I think she’s starting to  have cold feet..

She smiled and left..

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