Suddenly everything changes 22

Hello!!

This is the longest post in the story!! They were supposed to be 2 separate posts but i decided to merge them under a long one..

anyway I hope you enjoy;*

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***GHALA:

I opened the chat and started reading..

There was a link to a video on youtube..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMk4RwzugG8&feature=related

And then there was a long message written in Arabic..

It read:

كان هالليلة بهاكي ماهو عادي

كنتي أنتي

وأنتي لمّا تكوني

ماهو عادي

كنتي إعجاز وسحر

كنتي دنيا من طهر كان نورك في جبين الكون بادي

كان في صمتك طرب

كان في عيونك شغب

كان حسنك للحسن يرسي مبادي

كنتي في أجمل حضورك

كنتي في أعدل غرورك

ولمّا طافتبي عيونك

واستقرت في فؤادي

 كنت أنا أتأملك و كنت أنا أتخيلك

كنت انا أتأماك وأتخيلك

وأنتي معي

والكون هادي

آه أنا من غيرك أنتي وش وجودي ؟

آه أنا كم أبغى باكر لو تعودي

آه من ذكرى بتشعل بي سهادي

يا ملاذي ومنتهاي وأولي

إيه أحبك فوق ماتتخيلي

ليت أنا يا بعد قلبي لي قلوب

لجل مافي كل لحظة بك أذوب

كل إجاباتك أنا

لا تسألي

أنتي إحساسي الأكيد

وأنتي دمي اللي بيجري

في الوريد

أنتي ياعمري .. بلادي

Couldn't express my feelings for you in a better way..

OH MY GOD!!

OH

MY

GOD!!!

I was speechless!

I heard that song a thousand times, but this time it felt.. different

Its like I can feel every word touching my heart.. 

Like I can finally find a meaning to the song..

I read every word twice.. waiting for it all so sink in!

And as I read the words, i can visualize Abdullah standing in front of me singing his heart out.. 

I can now fully believe that he loves me..

I dropped my phone AND my jaw; it almost reached the ground!

I was shocked..

I didn't know what to say.. or how to act in this situation..

And does he know?

That I’m engaged and about to get married in a few days!!

I decided to ignore him and try to sleep.. I don't have anything to say to him.. and even if I did he'd be disappointed!

I moved in my bed turning right and left.. I couldn’t sleep!

***ABDULLAH:

I did it!!

Finally!

I sent the message

I was so nervous but I had to let her know how I feel about her..

I checked bbm and saw that she read but ignored.. hmm I don’t blame her!

I also found a bbm from dana

Dee:

Ha we9alt el bait? Are you settled in?

 Mu wagtichh..

Abdullah Al*****:

Ee and u?

Dee:

Ashwa I was worried!! Ee me too I’m in bed :D

Abdullah Al*****:

Me too yallah ana banam taben shay?

Dee:

Salamtik yallah gn xx

I ended the chat and kept listening to the song over and over again..

And ghala was on my mind the whole time..

***AZIZ:

I woke up the next morning to a text from ghala..

Ghala:

Good morning my love.. how are you today?

I was sick for the last three days..

Aziz:

Hala o ghala 9aba7ch allah bilkhaair! Wallah asmaa3 9otich o ba9eer zain akeed!

She called me after a while..

Ghala: ahlaaan

Me: hala bhal 9ooot

Ghala: hala feeek!

Me: ha shlonich?

Ghala: bkhaiir el7mdlaa

Me: o ana mara7 ts2leen 3any?

Ghala: haw tawik gayel ena etha kalamtny bt9eer zain!

Me: wallah el3atheeem entaaaayy…

Ghala: hahaha sry adry anarfizz.. shlonik? Shakhbarik? Ezayik? How are you? Comment allez-vous???

Me: looool ya3ny ya mats2leen ya ts2leen eb kil el lughaat

Ghala: hahah kil hatha 3ashan matz3aaal

Me: kafuu wallah!

We continued talking for a short while then we hung up..

I got out of bed and went to the living room..

Sara was sitting watching tv..

When she saw me she smiled..

Sara: 9aba7 elkhair

Me: 9aba7 enoor

Sara: ha mint 6ali3 ma3a ghala elyom?

Me: 3ala asas eny a6la3 ma3aha kilyoom? La mara7 n6la3

Sara: ahh ok.. enzain magiltyy!

Me: shnu?

Sara: how did you guys meet? How did you fall in love with her? O shlon qarartaw enna titzawijon?

Hmm .. how can I tell her..

Me: tgdreen tgolen love at first sight

Sara: enzain wain shftha?

Me: eb shalaih abdullah..

Ahh abdullah.. wallah eny walaht 3alaih!!

Madry 3anna 9arly fatra!

O kila minny!

Sara interrupted my thoughts..

Sara: enzain o ehya shlon 7abitik?

Me: ahh ok esalfa ta7qeeq?

Sara: waay aby a3aref!!!

I told her some of what happened.. omitting 6alal’s part and the part at the hospital..

Sara: aawwww cute!!!

I smiled..

Sara: bs mat7is enna tesara3t.. y3ny bsmila mamdakum 3araftaw ba3ath..

Me: la wallah..

Sara: ee madry y3ny what if she turns out to be a b*tch? Not that I’m implying that she is!

I widened my eyes

Me: SHNU B*TCH??? Tadreeen entay mu kafoo a7ad ya36eech wayh!!

Sara: wallah fakir feeeha aziz!! Elzawaj mu li3ba and do you think you know her enough to actually 

marry her and let her mother your children?

I just stared at her.. and got up

Wallah kint 3ady agoom afla3ha eb akbar ma3ndy..

But something stopped me..

I don’t know..

 A feeling of doubt? Suspicion?

But I quickly brushed it off.

***GHALA:

I opened my eyes the next day..

My first day of uni

My first class is at 11 and I finish at 2..

I woke up, washed and changed into a white dress with purple flats and let my hair fall naturally..

I checked my phone and saw a bbm from sara..

Swair:

Good morning!! Lets go out today :p

Ya7lailhaa

Ghala Al******:

Gm!! Yallah ok when and where?

She didn’t reply..

I got into my car and left..

Aaah I forgot how boring our classes are!!

Long meaningless lectures …. I cant wait till the year is over!!

But on second thought.. I’m going to miss jam3a.. and my friends here

I finished my 11 am class and called Raneem one of my best friends..

She traveled the whole summer so I didn’t get to tell her what happened!

Me: alooo

Raneem: ahlaaaain

Me: halaa feeech wainech wainech? Lazim ashofich al7eeen walhana 3alaichhhh

I miss her soooo much

Raneem: wala ana akthaar!! ana al7een baroo7 el cafeteria ta3aleely

Me: yallah ok

I walked to the cafeteria and saw her standing next to the door..

I went and gave her the biggest hug!!

Me: ya7mara!! Maysafroon 3 months!!

Raneem: haha wallah 7aail walhana 3alaich!!! Entaw kila tyoon ma3ana hal marra madry laish 

mayeetaw!

Me: ee uboy mashghool eb amreca o magidarna alf marra gtlich anyway 3ndy alf shay agolich eya!

Raneem: yallah 3ndy break now.. entay meta your break?

Our schedule kila nafs eshay ella el a7ad o khamees.. lama ehya ekon 3ndha break ana fathya and vice 

versa

Me: laa 3ndy class 12-1 o 1-2!

Raneem: waaih allah y3eenich.. khalas 3ayal ta3aleeely elyoom

Me: okkk yalla see you ya gameel o golay 7ag elbajy I miss them too!

I walked to my class.. and my phone beeped..

Swair:

Awesome! 360 at 3? Mshtahya OFK

Ghala Al******:

Tam ;)

I was going to kill my self the lectures were long and boring!!

***ABDULLAH:

I woke up and the first thing I did was check my phone..

No reply

This is not going to be a good morning..

I went down stairs to eat some breakfast..

My phone rang..

It was dana

Shfeha dagga?

I answered

Me: alooo

Dana: alooo abdullah please help!!

She was panicking!

Me: shfeech dana 3asa ma shar??

Dana: bancherat sayarty o madry shasawyy!! O the first one I thought of calling is you! But its ok if you 

can’t come!

It makes sense .. she had one 11 year old brother and 2 younger sisters .. bs laish dagat 3alay o madagat 

3ala a7ad min her cousins.. aw ubooha? ee 9a7 msafer..

Anyway mu wagta haltafkeer o lazim asa3ed’ha I was worried..

Me: laa afa 3alaich goolely wainich o masafat e6ereej wana 3ndich!!

She told me where she was I quickly changed and headed to her..

I saw her car parked on the pavement.. and I parked infront of it..

She got out of her car..

Dana: wallah sorry 3anaitikk bs 7ady mitwahgaa!

Me: haha la 3ady mafeeha shay khanshof etayer

I took a look around and spotted the tire..

Me: mu mishkla .. 3dnich spare?

She looked at me confused..

Me: ya3y tayer zayed?

Dana: ee umm madry wain alga?

I opened the trunk and removed the cover and found the spare..

I smiled: hny tilgaina :p

Dana blushed: hehe okk

***DANA:

He went to his car to bring the tool box..

wallah he is soo cute!!

And his dimples when he smiles.. I cant get over them

He was wearing A&F grey sweat shorts and a polo shirt..

He leaned down and started working on the tire..

I was staring at him..

Correction: I was ogling!

I have to admit he was so hot while working on my car!

I walked to him..

Me: umm abdullah taby may? I have an extra bottle

Abdullah wiped the sweat beads off of his forehead: yes pleasee

I gave him the bottle with some tissue..

And he smiled back..

Aah that smile made my heart flutter like the butterflies in my stomach..

After a while he finished and stood up..

Abdullah: khalastt :p

Me: mashkoooor wallah matga9er!! O sorry ta3abtik!

Abdullah: la 3adyy mafeeha ta3ab! O ay shay tabeena mara thanya layridich ella elsanich!!

I smiled and walked to my car..

Abdullah: dana

I turned around.. ahh the way he says my name

Me: hala?

Abdullah smiled: deeray balich mara thanya haa?

I blushed: enshallah

And quickly got into the car!

***GHALA:

I reserved a table at OFK and was waiting for el7ilwa sara etsharif..

After a while she arrived..

Sara: hiii

I got up 3ashan asalim

Me: hala feech shakhbarich?

Sara: bkhaiir entay shlonich?

Me: el7imdla tamam!

We started talking about a lot of things.. after we ordered of course I was soo hungry!

She asked me about law and if I recommend it since she was interested..

We talked about other things…

Until she brought up aziz..

Sara: ya3ny maglteely how did you guys meet??

Me: its kind of funny actually.. bs we met bilshalaih.. o kan 9idfa y3ny

Sara: haha o ba3dain shlon ta3arftaw 3ala ba3ath? Wela uhwa bs shafich o ekh6ibich?

Me: la ya3ny we talked shwaya we got to know each other o ba3dain taqadamly :p

Sara: ahh china mamdakum et3arfoon 3ala ba3ath 3adel

Me: laa y3ny I know enough …

Sara: ee.. madry a7is chinkum shway tisara3taw.. y3ny mu ma3qola t3arfeen shakh9 eb a couple of 

months..

Hmm.. why is she being like this?

Me: la sara I told you enna I know a lot about him.. plus ena he’s my cousin’s best friend fa uhwa y3arfa 

3adel!

Sara: eee 9aa7… la bas lana ams kint ga3da akalim 3azeez o itold him the same thing o 7asait enna he 

agrees with me shway.. bs enna 6af o allah ywafegkum enshallah :D

I could sense a hint of a smirk crawling on her lips.. then she looked down at her food.

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***GHALA:

aaah I want to pull my hair out!!

The preparations for the milcha are driving me crazy! Allah y3een lo 3irs shbasawy?

Especially ena bagy 2 weeks 3ala elmelcha and its getting scarier every day!

I’m too nervous all the time.. I want everything to be perfect! Even my party planner is going crazy 

because of my perfectionist self!

I think she wants to kill me…

On top of that, I just realized that in 2 days I’m going to start uni..

My last year of studying law!! AAAHHH SUCH A RELIEF!!!

I was looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time!

anyway..

I had an appointment at the salon at 4:30.. so I was getting ready

Elyoom estqbal ekhit talah, Lulu.. its her first born o 7ad’ha mishta6a o msaweeta eb bait ahalhaa..

In the saloon i did a manicure and pedicure and the fishtail braid :D 

I applied my make up and decided to wear my Carven dress and Valentino heels

My mother and I got ready and left..

We arrived at Aunt Laila’s house (Talah’s mom) and there were already people there..

Hala: waay zain yeetay! Salma lail7een mayat o talah kil 5 digayig em6arsheenha!!

Me: haha! Btw you look stunning!!

Hala: Thank you!!! Ma 3alaich zood 7abeebty

We chatted for a while.. then my aunts started to order us around..

One of my aunts came to me..

Aunt Maryam: ghala 7abeebty ekhthay jan6ity o 3abaty 76eehum eb dar talah maby a7i6hum hny o 3ad 

atkharba6 wagt e6al3a

Me: hehe enshallah khaltyy

I took her things and went up stairs to talah’s room..

They had a small living room for everyday use.. and then there’s a hall that lead to all their rooms

I went into talah’s room and turned on the lights..

I placed the things on talah’s bed wela asma3 9oot

----: talah??

I froze?

Is it?

Could it be?

I saw a head peak out of one of the rooms..

It is!!

It was abdullah!

Omg!

I didn’t know why I was frozen in my place!

He got out of his room..

Abdullah: TALAH?

He looked at me, realized I wasn’t talah and then froze too

We just stood there for I don’t know how many minutes just staring at each other..

***ABDULLAH:

Is it obvious?

I think its obvious that I’m staring like a freakin dog at her..

I was looking at her from head to toe..

And my eyes refused to look at anything other than ghala..

My ghala..

A voice inside my head shouted ..

NO! SHE IS NOT YOURS REMEMBER?

Ahh and how can I forget?

I just got back home from London.. and the first person I see is ghala..

This could be one of my luckiest days..

Or one of my worst..

She lowered her gaze..

Ghala: el7imdila 3asalama!! Taw manawerat edeera

I just stared..

I didn’t know what to say! All the words I once learned are now erased..

What are we supposed to reply to that?

She looked confused ..

Ghala: uhh.. yallah ana lazim amshy

She walked closer to me.. or to the door..

I absentmindedly blocked her way and stood in front of her..

She stopped abruptly her body centimeters away from mine..

Okk.. chiny ma9akht’ha lazim at7acha

Me: e7mm.. allah ysalmich

I have to admit I was blown away.. its like it’s the first time I ever see ghala..

She is so beautiful.. I could never get over how damn pretty she is!

What I’m seeing right now, Is hard to be put into words.. pretty is just an understatement when describing 

ghala..

Is it possible for a person to love another that much?

She smiled and tried to go past me but I held her hand..

Again absentmindedly..

Or intentionally.. Whichever way you want to see it!

She looked at me surprised and slowly tried to remove her hands..

I think I screwed up..

Me: ana asiif..

She just gave me one last look and walked away..

***GHALA:

I was nervous!

My heart was banging in my chest!

The way abdullah looked at me scared me.. and confirmed all my doubts..

He does have feelings for me..

Aahh that thought made my heart beat even faster..

I saw talah walking  to the kitchen and grabbed her arms..

Me: aby akalmich asap!!!

Talah: ok!

She followed me to the bathroom.. we were alone and I told her everything!

Me: talah he likes me!! He likes me LIKES ME!! Ya3ny mu bs like 3adyy he ---

Talah: wallaaah fahaaamt o adry minziman!

I stared at her..

Me: and u never told me because???

Talah: you were too busy falling in love with aziz!

Me: min meta hal kalam??

Talah: minziman I noticed ena he liked you.. and then I talked to him the other day o 6ala3 9ij he does..

Me: oh my god!!

Galby ga3ed e3awerny!! I felt guilty madry laish!

Talah: shnu ra7 tsaween al7een?

Me: wala shay.. talah magdar asawy shay I’m already engaged o milchity is within 2 weeks and I love 

aziz!

She looked at the ground in disappointment..

Talah: are you sure you love him?

I was confused.. does she want me to leave aziz for abdullah!

Me: ee talah I am sure and I want it to stay that way!

 Talah: ok ok!

We got out of the bathroom and joined the other ladies..

Ahh it was too much to take in for one day..

I mean, I had a feeling he liked me before but I brushed it off my mind and tried not to think about it!

And I will do the same thing now.. avoid it because thinking about it and stressing out is no use since I’m 

going to be a married woman..

A chill ran up my spine.. I’m going to have to get used to the idea of me getting married!

Finally, the night came to an end!

My mom and I returned home and I couldn’t wait to get my heels off!

Aah my feet are killing me!

I took my clothes off, changed into my pjs and laid on my bed..

Of course I had to think about everything..

Did I choose the right color of flowers?

Did I order the best and tastiest kind of sweets?

Is my dress going to fit me perfectly?

The thoughts were accumulating in my brain! It was tiring! And for some reason all my thoughts lead me 

back to the same person..

Abdullah.

My phone beeped..

I checked it and it was a bbm from abdullah..

Mashalah 3umra 6weel!

I opened the chat and started reading..

OH MY GOD!

What do you think he sent her???:D

Suddenly everything changes 20

***ABDULLAH:

I was walking down oxford street..

I love London.. but now with my situation I’m hating on everything!

I walked by Ben’s Cookies and remembered ghala..

Ahh ghala

Bs abdullah enta msafer 3ashan tinsaha! Latfakir feeha!

It was hard convincing myself..

Everything reminded me of her.. even though it has nothing to do with her!

Aaaaah low tadryy 7abeeby kaif ayamy bedoonik tisrig el3umr o tifooot!

That’s it I need to stop being a drama queen..

I need to find a way to get over her

My phone started ringing, it was talah

Me: aloo

Talah: ahlan! Shlonik?

Me: bkhair .. entay shakhbarich?

Talah: wallah el7imdilla.. agoolik ghala enkha6bat.. officially

It was like she dropped a brick on my heart..

Me: enzain o shtabeeny asawy?

Talah: la bas kint bagoolik.. you could’ve been the one but you ran away..

Me: shnu ran away tara mu qa9ib esalfa ehya taby o uhu yabeeha khalas talah sakray el mawthoo3 o etha 

bitikalimain 3an ghala ladigeen 3alay marathnya

I was mad! Broo7 elly feeny kafeeny o hathy yaya tzeed elham!

Talah: ok sorry khalas! Anyway how’s London?

Me: zaina

Talah: hmm ee nesait lagoolik.. abeek tyeebly toms please

Me: entay matkhalseen? Min we9alt o ana bs ashtreelich ashya2

Talah: wallah maly khilg a6liba o sina 3ala mayoo9al.. o a9lan enta meta bitrid

Me: wallah madry

I booked a one way ticket.. not planning to return anytime soon

Talah: anyway ill text you the kind and size o please rid bser3a aby ashya2y

Me: e9eer khair yallah byye lazim aroo7

I hung up..

Wallah ya talah o nakadtay 3alayy..

Khalas its over! I HAVE to forget about her now..

She’s never going to be mine anyway so why bother my self with being hurt..

I turned around and walked to Selfridges..

I entered the building..

----: ohh hii!!

Me: hala walla!

It was a girl I met at the airplane.. she came alone and sat next to me.

Her name was Dana al****** .. she was very sweet and funny

Mu noo3y asolif ma3a banat ma3arefhum.. but in a 6 hour flight I had to..

Also, when she came in she was really shy that she was sitting next to a guy.. and she was holding a bag

She tried to carry it to place it in the cabin.. but she was too skinny and her bag was a little heavy so she 

couldn’t carry it..

I offered to help her, she refused at first but then gave in and accepted my offer..

We were quiet at first but then we started watching movies and then started conversing.. until it felt like its 

OK.

Anyway..

Dana: shlonikk?? Matiwaqa3t ashoofik:p

Me: haha ee 3ad ana shayfich thak elyoom bs kintay ma3a rfeejatich ma7abait asalem!

Dana: eee laa 3adyy btw enta wain sakin chiny shftik eb my hotel?

Me: sakin eb Cumberland..

Dana: nafsyy!!! Haha wanasa 6a3 e9idfa!

She was tiny and hyper and when she gets excited she jumps up and down and claps like a kid..

Me: ee wallah shftay shlon!

Dana: kint basalim bs esta7ait khift ti6la3 mu enta o atfashal!

Me: hahah tkhayilaay 6agga e9ader o ray7a .. 3ad 7asafa aby ashofich etefashlain

Dana: haaay laish 3ad !!

I smiled: bs chthy!!

Dana: anyway what r u doing now?

Me: wallah maku ga3ed atmasha..

Dana: khanroo7 movie aw shay.. wallah malal maku a7ad ma3ay kil rab3y radaw o ana ga3da broo7y

Me: o laish maradaitay ma3ahum?

Dana: bs lana tifalsaft o gilt 3ady ag3ad broo7y o ba3dain arid I needed time alone.. bs wallah malait

She pouted.. she’s so cute chinha yahil!

Hmm shasawy? Maskeena mara7 akhaleeha bro7ha..

Me: awal shay emshay bashtry toms ekhty mwa9eetny.. b3dain enroo7 cinema

Dana: ok :D

We went into the building and headed to the shoes department..

I checked my mobile and saw that she wanted 2 classics red and black.. and one silver sizes 38

I got the shoes paid, and we left..

Me: ha shnu tabeen etshofeen?

Dana: hmm khanshoof the grey ymd7oona..

Me: yallah

We walked to marble arch cinema and booked our tickets..

Dana looked at me..

Dana: abaih wallah ashwanik mawjod.. 9ij ena tawna en3aref ba3ath bs I feel like I knw you minzimaan!! 

Me: hehe ay shay tabeena ana mawjood!

We watched the movie and had a great time..

After that we spent the upcoming days together..

I got to know her better.. and noticed how pretty she was

She helped me take my mind off of ghala..

A little..

And in the same time a lot of the things that she does or says reminded me of ghala..

O akthar shay enna she studies law in Kuwait too!

One night, we were talking on bbm when I realized that I was doing exactly what aziz did with ghala..

I’m such a hypocrite!

And then I remembered what talah told me ..

Talah: ee ya3ny 7i6 nafsik mukanhum!!! Tikhayal ent et7ib cousin aziz!

Me: masawy elly uhu sawa!! Akalma 3ala 6ool mala da3y laf o dawaran

Talah: enzain etkalma shetgola? Aby atzawaj your cousin? Enta mat3arefha wala ehya et3arfik!! 

Tara ezawaj mu li3ba y3ny aziz o ghala tara tawhum e3arfoon ba3ath ma9arlhum 7ata 3 

weeks!! O 9arlhum 1 week maykalmoon ba3ath lana aziz kan bekalmik!

Abdullah: ya3ny mashallah eb hal 3 asabee3 3refaw ba3ath??

I got mad at aziz when his emotions were pure, and if they weren’t he wouldn’t have married ghala now.

And I was doing the same.. I’m sure Dana’s brother or cousin is going to be pissed when he finds out 

about me..

I think I should end this..

***DANA:

I woke up the next morning.. its been 2 weeks in london with abdullah and they passed by so fast!

It was a great coincidence bumping into him in Selfridges the other day..

Adry ana wayed telazaagt bs wallah shasawy I was alone!

He’s a wonderful guy!!

Sweet, funny, caring!! Everytime he talks to me a smile forms on my lips!

And my heart flutters!

He’s also cute…

Tall, muscular, and has short black hair.. he has 2 dimples and when he smiles its like he takes me to a whole different planet!

Omg dana what r u saying!!

He’s like a brother to me..

My phone beeped..

It was a bbm from abdullah .. I grinned

I opened the bbm..

Abdullah Al*****:

Good morning!

Dana I need to talk to you about something its important!

 He scared me..

Dee:

3asa ma shar shisalfa?

Abdullah Al*****:

Mayinfa3 nitkalam hny I have to see you..

Dee:

Mm ok wain?

Abdullah Al*****:

Meet me at the lobby in 10 minutes

Dee:

Okk!

I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom..i washed and changed in 10 minutes which is a record!

I went down stairs and saw him leaning on the wall next to the sofas punching on his blackberry..

I walked up to him and smiled..

Me: 9aba7 elkhaiir

Abdullah: 9aba7 enoor

Me: shfeek mkhare3ny min e9ub7?

Abdullah: haha la mu qasdy bs fe mawthoo3 muhim lazim enaqsha

He sat on the sofa so I followed..

Me: shnu hal mawthoo3?

He seemed serious.. tense

Abdullah: dana.. shnu bethab6 elly baina? Ya3ny maby akhar3ich bs aby afham enna ana shnu bilnisba lich o entay shnu binisba ly?

Huh?

Unexpected? Check. Weird? double check!

What Is he trying to say..

Does he have….. feelings for me?

Hmm..

Me: mafahamt.. what r u trying to say?

Abdullah: ok asif 6la3at ghala6 awal marra.. ya3ny aq9id enna are we friends?

What was I supposed to say?

Me: umm ee I guess..

Is this his way of telling me he liked me?

Abdullah: ahh ok .. bs y3ny I had a similar situation with a cousin o my friend kinda fell in love with her and no one told me.. fa when I found out I got really pissed.. o what im trying to say here..

And then he stopped talking.. it was obvious he was nervous.. and his face started to sweat..

Hmm ..

Me: what.. are you trying to say?

Abdullah smiled: tadreen shloon nevermind khalas its ok..

He got up..

***ABDULLAH:

ana 7mar 7mar!!

madry shkharba6t 3ala ras libnaya!!

Shaku agoolaha qi9at ghala o shloon aziz 7abha?

Shes going to think that I like her.. and that that’s what im trying to say!

But its not!

Tewahagt 7ady chan agoom

Dana: waait! Abdullah you can tell me anything! What are you feeling?

Me: la wallah maku shay hehe gumt agi6 khai6 o khai6 lail7een mitnarfiz min rfeejy

Ok mo khoosh targee3a

Dana: oh..

She seemed disappointed ..

Me: elmuhim bas2ilich.. meta btrdeen? Lana 7ajazt rada bacher enshalah esa3a 10 e9ub7!

Dana widened her eyes..

Dana: laaa abdullah please latkhaleeny broo7y!

7aram.. I felt a little guilty for not telling her before I booked my ticket..

I don’t know why I just can’t let her here alone!

Me: akeed mara7 akhaleech! Tabeen a7jizlich ma3ay?

She lowered her head in thought..

Dana: hmm.. ok ay 6ayaran?

Me: british

Dana: ok business nafs last time?

Me: ee

Dana: ok khalas ba7jiz weyaak!

I smiled: khoosh! 3ayal yallah roo7ay sakray jna6ich o est3day we’re going back to Kuwait!

I immediately dreaded the thought..

I was going back to Kuwait..

Back to ghala..

Allah y9aberny!

Suddenly everything changes 19

***ABDULLAH:

Me: ghala.. etha t7beena.. o uhwa y7ibich.. ana mara7 ogaf eb darbkum .. o allah ywafigkum..

It broke my heart.. every word I said.. I didn’t mean it!

I love her!

I want her!

She’s supposed to be MINE!

But she loves…. Him

I tried.. but I couldn’t hold back my tear.. it betrayed me and fell in front of ghala

I didn’t want her to sense my weakness

To sense my love..

It took every muscle in my body to turn around and walk away..

I didn’t want to!

I wanted ghala to stay in my arms forever..

And ever..

Ahhhhhhh

I entered the duwanyia.. and saw a pack of new cigarettes..

I stared at it.. I couldn’t help my self

That shit looked so tempting.. and god knows how much I need a cigarette right now!

NO! abdullah you went through hell to quite! You don’t want to go through that again!

I grabbed the pack and took out a cigarette.. I was looking for something to light it with

Hmm and then I remembered..

That night when ghala came to me and saw me smoking,  she frowned and covered her nose ..

*FLASHBACK:

ghala: waay abdullah laih meta bidakhin?

Me: haha lama allah yafrijha

Ghala: ya3ny matadry enna mu zain? Ya3ny shnu tabeeny agoolik aw awareek 3ashan tqtini3 

enha mo zaina?

Me: wallah adry bs shinsawy hatha el7ath

Ghala moved in her seat and sighed..

Ghala: wallah y3awerny galby lama ashoofik edakhin! 7aram wallah 7aram its like your killing 

your self everyday.. if you don’t care about your self tara your family does!! I do o I don’t want to see you get hurt!

And there was that look in her eyes.. she was sincerely upset.. it broke my heart

I threw my cigerette on the floor..

Me: wallah 9a7 kalamich! Khala9 3ashanich ba7awel ag6a3!

She looked at me with a surprised look on her face..

Ghala: abdullah tara maytha7iik!! Min9ijik??

I flashed her a smile: eeee akeed min9ijyy!! Cham ghala 3indy ana?

Hmm I think at that time, I started having feelings for her without realizing..

I came back to reality..

I removed the cigarette from my mouth and crushed it!

I was enraged!!

I stepped on the cigarette pack.. and started punching the wall!!

Me: AAAAAAH!!!!

Why is this happening??

If only I admitted my love for her earlier..

If only I have realized I loved her earlier!!

But what is done is done!!

She loves him.. he loves her.. I need to accept that

I got out my phone.. and texted aziz..

“tewakal 3ala allah o ekh6ibha min ahalha.. mara7 amni3ik.

Bs tadry ena etha athait’ha eb ay 6areeqa matloom ella nafsik”

I read it a couple of times over and over again..

Then I decided to press, “send”.

***GHALA:

The weeks passed and my parents came back from America!

I missed them SOOO MUCHH!! I’m the happiest person alive!!

And oh did I mention? IM OFFICIALLY ENGAGED TO AZIZ!!

Aaah I’m so excited and nervous at the same timeee!!

Elyoom yaw ereyayeel o 7adidaw el mahar o yoom elmilcha which is a month from now..

A7is maku wagt akhalis kilshay!!

My sisters were all happy for me.. their youngest sister finally getting married..

And thary was happy too but he was a little surprised that Aziz, being abdullah’s best friend, was 

marrying me.. and abdullah disappeared and for no reason!

And no, I haven’t seen Abdulla since that night at the shalaih.. he travelled to London and didn’t come 

back yet!

He only texted me..

“Mabrook ghala.. allah yhanekum”

I replied: “allah ybarik feek matga9er! Btw I miss you;*”

But he ignored..

Anyway!! I have a million things to do before the milcha which is going to be in aziz’s house..

They’re house is BEAUTIFUL AND HUGE!! And they’re basement is the perfect place for the milch a! 

I called the party planner and booked her in advance so she could help with the decorations.. I couldn’t do 

everything on my own.

His 2 sisters, Muneera (20) and Sara (17) are very sweet and helpful!! I love them!

My phone rang.. it was aziz

Me: alooo

Aziz: hala bhal 9oot!

Me: hala feeek;p

Aziz started singing: 3yooonik akher amaly o laily a6wal min elyam kaif alga kalamin 3athb yo9af dafy 

e7sasy? 3ashagtik gabl ma ashofik o shftik 9irt kily 7ilm aby rimshik ygha6eeny o abeek agrab min anfasyyy

I blushed: awww!! I love youuu

Aziz: ya bakhtyyy!! Wallah hal kilma taqtilny

Me: hehe smilla 3alaiik

Aziz: ya salam 3alaiichh! Et9adgeen walaht 3alaich?

Me: ee akeed ana bsr3a ynwilih 3alay

Aziz: et9adgeen entay mu mal kalam 7ilu?

Me: loool wallah ana walahana 3alaiik ba3add!!

Aziz: hmm egoloon bacher ebt6l3een ma3a saro o manor!!

Me: eee badawer dress 7ag el milchaa

Aziz: bariiz wayhyy

Me: laaa

Aziz: affa laish??

Me: bs abeeha tkoon surprise!!

Aziz: ee rag3ay rag3ay!

Me: haha wallah! Aby tyee o titfaja’ eb kilshaay!

Aziz: yallah ok ba3ad shnsawyy allah yaster bas madry shnawya 3alaiih

We continued talking until it was 3pm ..

We hung up and I went down stairs where my mother was sitting..

Mom: hala bibnaytyyy.. zain nezaltay

Me: hehe akeed banzilichh!! Ha 3ayal wain uboy?

Mom: 6ala3 3inda cham shaghla lazim akhali9’ha

Me: ee ok..

Mom: enzain 7abeebty bagolich shay

Me: tefathilaay

Mom: tara e7na bnsafer 3ugub milchitich 3ala 6ool.. o manigdar en’ajilha zyada

I was shocked!

Me: laaaaa! Laish mama I neeeed you with me!

Mom: adry 7abeebty wallah bs manigdar ubouch 3inda shighil o khawatech ma3ach mara7 ega9roon!!

Me: adryy bs entay ghaiir! O laykoon mara7 tyeen 7ag el3irs?

Mom: 6ab3aan binye enshallah!!

Thag khilgy 7aill.. I wanted my mother to be with me at all times especially at this time..

Suddenly everything changes 18

***ABUDLLAH:

Me: ee.. a7ibha..

Talah stopped and stared at me.. I lowered my head

Did I just say that out loud?

She came and sat next to me..

Talah whispered: enshallah etkoon min ni9eebik

Me: ahhh 9a3baa…

***GHALA:

I woke up at around 5 pm .. it was quiet in the shalaih..

I checked my phone wela alf bbm min salma and hala.. they were going to MC o yabony agool my order 

fatheen!

There was no bbm from aziz nor abdullah..

Ahh abdullaah!

I washed and went down stairs.. and saw talah sitting on the couch..

She saw me and smiled..

I went and sat next to her..

Talah: halla walla

Me: hala feechh

I wanted to ask her about abdullah.. bs khayfaa!

How do I ask.. and what do I ask exactly? M3a9ib? karahny? Ra7 ekalim aziz again? Wayed as’ila!!

Talah looked at me sensing the tension..

Talah: shfeech?

Me: walah madryy.. kilshay

Talah: laiish?

Me: shnu laish? Nesaitay elly 9ar elyoom?

Talah: laa 6ab3aan.. o 3ala e6aryy betkalmeen abdullah?

Me: LAA!! Maly waayh!

Talah: bil3aaax ana a7is enna u guys need to talk!

Me: nitkalam 3an shnu? How I betrayed him? Went behind his back and fell in love with his best friend? 

Magdaar wallah :(

Talah: 9adgeeeny ghala!! Entay ga3da etfakreen eb shay o uhwa ga3ed efakir eb shay thanyy! O ba3dain wain elly kanat etgoly ena ana o aziz mu ga3den ensawy shay ghala6? O n7ib ba3ath? Laish matgoleen 

hal kalam 7ag abdullah o etfahmeena enna niyatkum 9afya o bil akheer yaby yitzawijich aziz!!

Me: madryy talah wallah!!

Talah got up: 3al3omoom uhwa blduwanya ga3ed ebroo7a.. u can go anytime and talk to him!

She walked away..

Me: laa7tha wain ray7a??

Talah: baroo7 atsaba7

Me: ok :(

Hmmm.. what do I say? How is he going to react? I’m sure that as soon as I open the door and he sees me 

he’s going to kick me out! I’m defiantly the last person he wants to talk to right now! Maby aroo7 o 

afashil 3umryy!

Ahh wallah madry shasawy!

But what if?

What if I talk to him .. and we sort everything out.. and he doesn’t hate me anymore?

What if ----

I heard the door open..

Someone came in.. it was dark I couldn’t see.. wait

Is that abdullah?

Yes it is!!

What is he doing here?

He looked at me long and hard.. and I didn’t look away

Abdullah: e7m wain talah?

Me: m-madryy

Abdullah: dazatly msg tgoly ta3al bsr3a khare3atny

Of course.. she set us up!

Me: umm madry wallah..

Abdulla’s phone rang..

Abdullah: ha talah shfeech? .. la wallah min9ijich? Gilt akeed ma3ndich salfa yallah bye!

He closed his phone.. and turned around to leave..

Me: abdullah!!

Wait.. NO WHY DID I CALL HIM!!

Iff fashlaa shagoolaa al7een!

He turned and just stared..

I got up and took one step forward..

Me: uhh .. umm ana uhh

Abdullah: shfech?

Me: umm ana asfa abdullah!!

My eyes started to tear..

He just looked at me.. noo please say something!

I walked closer to him then stopped..

Me: please .. *sniff* lat3a9ibb

Abdullah whispered: shnu tabeeny asawy ghala?

I can sense the pain in his voice.. the pain of betrayal..

I lowered my head and covered it with my hands and sobbed

He took a deep breath, and walked closer to me

Abdullah: ghala khala9 latabcheen

I couldn’t stop

He held my chin and slowly raised my head and removed my hands

He lowered my hands .. and was still holding them

Abdullah: al7een entay laish ga3da tabchen?

Me: m-madryy sniff a7isik karahtnyy o karaht aziz kila minny sniff ana kharabt 3elaqtkum kila minny!! 

Wallah as---

He placed his finger on my lips..

Abdullah whispered: shhh.. ghala ana ma akrihich.. layumkin akrihich

I stared at him with the tears flowing down my cheeks..

He wiped my tears..

Abdullah took a deep breath: entay.. et7beena?

I just looked at the ground..

Abdullah frowned and nodded: akeed ee.. ba3ad ana shasu2al el ghaby

He was hurt..

Abdullah: o akeed ra7 tirthaain fee lama yakh6ibich rasmy?

I looked at him.. I didn’t say a word but my eyes were saying yes!

He looked at the ground.. his eyes started to tear..

Oh god no please! Masta7mil ashoof rayyal yabchyy.. 3ala 6ool abchy ma3a! o al7een abdullah.. ahh what have I done?

I stepped in and hugged him.. I didn’t know what I was doing but I knew one thing for sure, we both 

needed a hug!

He was surprised at first.. but then he wrapped his arms around me and hugged back..

I was sobbing and he kept telling me “shh” and running his hand through my hair..

After a while I removed my hand and took a step back.. and he looked at me..

Abdullah: ghala.. etha t7beena.. o uhwa y7ibich.. ana mara7 ogaf eb darbkum .. o allah ywafigkum..

A tear escaped his eye and fell down his cheek..

He gave me one last look and walked away..