Mit3eb ElGalb 30 (FINAL POST)

Suddenly everything froze.

My heart beats, that were once bouncing like a basketball in my chest.

The air around me that was playing with my hair.

The ocean suddenly stopped moving as if it were shocked too.

All I can hear is the ringing in my ear and the sound of Mit3eb's voice echoing "entay 6alig" in the background.

Did I hear him right? Did he really say those words? Was he really thinking them?????

We stayed frozen for a couple of seconds just staring at each other, our heartbeats growing faster and louder by the second.

His face started changing colors..

His eyes were wide and his mouth was hanging open.

His hands started to shake and he took a step towards me.

"L-laa, laa Noura la," he stuttered.

I kept staring at him in bewilderment. Its like for a second there, I don't recognize him anymore!

"Laa laa!! Laaa!!" He started shouting like a maniac.

I felt numb. I just stared at him as the tears gushed down my cheeks.

He grabbed my shoulder and started shaking me.

I stared at him blankly. He was shouting words of regret and shame but I couldn’t hear him because my mind was wandering somewhere far off.

Bhal sihoola galha?

Ya3ny bhal sihoola takhala 3any?

Ma3qoola?

Mit3eb’s POV:

I covered my face with my hands and lowered my head.

Ana shsawait?

Ana shgilt?

7maaaar o qasaman billaaaah 7maaar!!!!!

Min wain 6la3at hal kilma!!

:O

akeed bit3a9ib.. o btiz3al .. o btroo7 bait ahalhaa….

La

La tukfain laa!!

“Noura walla el3atheem eny ma aq9idha!!” I said.

She was lowering her head and staring blankly into space. I held her tiny face in my palms and lifted it up.

“Noura shofeeny,” I whispered. She looked at me with eyes full of tears and disappointment. 

“La7that ghathab, o adry ena mo 3ither, bs Noura walla eny ma aq9idha!! Entaay murty o 

abeeech ly ana bas!!”

She was silent the whole time but her eyes were speaking loud. They told me things that she would never dare utter. Her eyes mirrored her broken heart.

Ana mosta7eel a3eesh bdoonha mostaa7eel!!

Faj2a.. nazelat eedy min wayeha o meshaat 3anyy

Mesakt ed’ha, “Nouraa la7thaa wain ray7a??”

“Ma agdar akalmik al7een,” she whispered and continued walking back to the chalet.                                                                                                                                                           

I stood there looking at my wife go not knowing what to do or say to stop her.

Akhhh!! Allah yaster eb sitra bas!!

.

Mar yoom..

Yomaain..

Thalatha..

O Noura lail7een mataby tkalimnnyy..

Wala 7ata taby tshoofny..

Shasawy?? 3ayyazt o ana atrajaaha ta36eeny wayh o tisma3ny! Adry ena elly sawaita shay 

qawyy walla adryy

Mnu kan yetwaqaa3 enna be9eer feena elly 9aar?

Mnu kan yetwaqaa3 enna hal kilmitaaain byi6l3oon mny!!!

Akhhhh!!! Allaah kareeem!!

Kint ga3ed bil9ala.. wela ashof Noura tmur ray7a el ma9bakh fa awal ma shiftha fazaait..

9ij ena sakneen eb nafs el shiqa bs walla a7is eny minziman mo shayifha yakhyy

“Nouraa!” I called.

She stopped walking and turned to me without saying a word.

“Ta3alay aby akalmich eb mawtho3,” I said.

She looked at me for a few seconds and then took a few steps forward and stopped. She 

crossed her hands on her chest and waited for me to talk.

“Ta3alay g3day yamyy,” I said as I patted the empty seat next to me.

“Mit3eb baroo7 a9aly fe shay muhim wela aroo7?” she asked in an annoyed tone.

“Ughh,, la ro7ay 9alay,” I said.

Bajy el ayam kanat nafs eshayy.. ana agolaha kilmitain o tadgrny o trid el ghurfa mara 

thanya o tagfil 3ala 3umerha el bab.

Adry ena matinlam walla adry.. bs bainy o bainkum china m9akhat esalfaa ya3ny laih meta? 

Ok khal t3a9ib bs khal tertha tkalimnyyy khan7il el mushkila!!!!

6ab3an ma3a el ayam kanat t6laa3 wayed ma3a Lulu 3alabuna 3ers’ha garab o bejahzoon 

o madry shnu..

Ana mkhaleeha 3ala ra7at’ha, maly khilg asawy shay ghaaby at7asaf 3alaaih gad sha3ar 

rasyy!! 3ad ana mgarre3.. elmuhim!

Noura’s POV:

3irs Lulu garab 7aail.. I’m having mixed emotions!!! A7is 7aaail khayfa china 3irsyy ana o ham 7aaaaail mistaansaa o ga3da ad3eelaha ena allah ywafig’hum o ys3idhum <3!!

7adna mishtaa6een ana o Dalal o Lulu kil digeega yitghayar mood’ha tgool lama athakar 

eny batzawaaj atwatar o ti3tifis 7alat’ha.. tshawig::

Oh yeah and Mit3eb? I was hoping I wouldn’t have to talk about him!! Mnarfiznyyy 7aail!!

T3arfoon shu3oor elly you really want to hate someone and you try to fight the urge of 

wanting to punch them in the face every time you see them.. but at the same time you love 

them to death and you just want everything to go back to normal again?

No? ok. :(

9ij ena 3ayaz o uhwa yit2asaaf.. bs ely sawa mo shwaya!! 6alagny!! Tadron shnu y3ny 

6alagny?? O laykoon kil ma3a9ab begoly entay 6alig? Aby yingiri9! Aby yfakker siten marra 

gabel laysawyy shay kha9atan etha kan shay kbeer nafs el 6alag.

Right now I’m trying not to think about the train wreck that is my marriage and focus on better 

things like my massage appointment tomorrow and Lulu’s wedding.

.

The days passed so fast and it was finally Lulu’s wedding day. We went to the ballroom to prepare and see what the wedding planner had already set up. Lulu was in her room 

pampering herself and of course freaking out.

Ana kil shway a93adlaha ahadeeha o anzil o ti3tifis mara thanya yaninatnyy!!

When it was almost 5 pm, I left the hotel to go to the saloon for hair and makeup. El9aloon 

kan greeb min baitna fa gilt barid baitna abadel o a6la3 mara thanya.

6ab3an el 9aloon kan za7ma o sinaa 3ala ma bidat tsawy sha3ryy! O lama 7a6atly make up 

ma3ajabny ya3ny lazim hasuwalif t9eer bil 9aloon :)

I told her to wrap my hair into a high bun and apply simple makeup maby a9eer nafs maloot 

jareedat el wa9ee6 ely yit7awal wayeha law7a faneya staghferallah yarabyy!

Elmuhim khala9t ba3da 3ana2en 6aweel o radait el bait.. ashwa Mit3eb makan mawjood! 

Makan ly khilg ysa2liny as2ila..

Ma3ana shway a7is eny walhana 3alaih…. Bs LA Noura la!!!! Yitrawaalich..

Kint 7aaail mit2akhraa fa bsr3aa badalt o jabalt el manthara 3adalt el makeup shwaya .. 

ga3adt o lebast my jewelry o akher shay el ka3ab..

Refa3t rasy wela ashoof Mit3eb wagef yam el bab ga3ed e6ali3ny.

I gasped and placed one hand over my heart, he scared me!!

Min meta wagef hnyy!!!

I walked to the closet and pulled out a short cardigan and grabbed my clutch. I headed to the 

door but Mit3eb was still blocking my way.

“Bt6l3een al7een?” he asked.

Laa bs chthy lebast o khala9t o bag3ad bil9ala agasher 7aab ya3ny shrayik?:(

“Ee,” I said.

“Mnu bewadech?” he asked.

“Ana basoog,” I said.

“La yuba shnu tsogeen,” he said.

“O laish ma asoog?” I asked.

Ya3ny mo wagtiik al7een e6ali3 qarart yeeededa!!

“Ana awadech,” he said.

“Ok ana ban6irik ta7at,” I said as I walked away.

Maly khilg neqaaash lana 7ady mit2akhra!!

We got in the car and he drove off.

Awkward silence!!!!

I was punching nervously on my phone and he was busy concentrating on the road. The 

tension in the air was unbearable. It was obvious he wanted to say something but was 

hesitant.

Finally he broke the silence..

“Shaklich wayed 7ilu elyoom..” he said. “Ya3ny mo bas elyoom, kilyoom,” he chuckled.

Faj2a 7asait el wath3 elly tawna mitzawjeen o ma6a7at el meyana 3adel.. madry laish 

esta7aait…

Bs laa ana m3a9ba 3alaih!!

“Mashkoor,” I said. 7awalt abayenla eny mnafsa 3ishtaw

“Magilt ella el 9iij..” he said.

I smiled and then bit the insides of my mouth because I didn’t want him to see me smiling!!

“Noura shrayich nsafirlina mukan nghayer jaaw!! Yakhy walla aby ag3ad ma3ach broo7na  

nitfaham o ni7il mushkilatna..” he suggested.

“Walla madry Mit3eb magdar afaker al7een,” I said.

“Noura tukfaain ya3ny 7isaay feeny!! Laih metaa bnig3ad chithyy agoolich shay witrdeen 

3alay eb kilmitain o nsakr elmawtho3?” he asked.

El7imdla ena we9alna el findiq!!

“Madryy Mit3eb lama ariid akalmik enshallahh,” I said before I quickly got out.

I love him. He’s my husband and I have to forgive him at some point. It’s just that something 

is stopping me for some reason and I don’t know what it is!!

Lulu’s POV:

This is it!!

The moment that I was so excited for and dreading at the same time.

Saad eshawig ga3ed edizly msgs 6ool el yom e7awel ehadeeny bs maku fayda! Imagine 

walking in a place wearing 9-inch heels, a heavy dress and all eyes are on you.

Yarab ma at3archaaaab o a6ee7 :’((

Noura o Dalal o one of my cousins kanaw wagfeen yamy 3end el entrance.

“Shloon shakly?” I asked. My heart was beating like crazy and my hands were shaking.

“Ekhthaaay nafas 3ameeeq o latkhafeeen et’haaableeen allah y7afthich!” Noura said.

“Eeee Luluu lat7aateen o ebtasmaay o rif3ay rasich wintay tamsheen o 6al3ay seeda mo ta7at,” Dalal instructed.

“Enshallah enshallaahh!!” I said.

Hab El Sa3ad started playing and I almost fainted.

A7is a6waaaal darb meshaaita uhwa min el bab laih elkosha!!

I was so nervous that I wasn’t able to actually see people clearly even though I was wearing 

contact lenses. 7asaait wedy ogaf eb ni9 el 9ala o ag3ad 3al arth o agol khala9  maby akamiil

Elmuhim ba3ad malyon sa3a we9alt el koosha o wegaft malyoon sa3a zyadaa yallllaaah 

ga3adt.

7ail kan wedy af9akh el ka3ab o ansidi7 el qanafa muree7a :’(

kiliiish mo mistaw3ba elly ga3ed e9eer a7is machina 3irsy

yaw enaas ebarkoolyy o ana khaday nasya ni9 asameehum.. laa o tyeeny wa7da o ts2aly 

3arafteeny? Ana a9lan zain thakra esmy min etidoodih madry shasawy!

After a while they announced that the groom was about to enter.

AHHHH a7iis aby a9arekhhh!!!

Mabyy edishon mabyyy asti7yyy:”(

Too late! There he was my handsome husband surrounded by his father, brothers and 

friends.

When I saw him its like I can’t see anyone in the room except for him. His smile made my 

heartbeats slow down.

He reached the kosha and his friends started greeting him. He came up to me..

“Esalaam,” he said and kissed my forehead.

Eshawig!

We started taking pictures with his parents, my mother and sisters..

Finally it was just Saad and I on the kosha.

“Elyoom li3eb Man united o Chelsea!! Madryy min ghalab,” he said.

:)

“Mu min9ijik Saad! Ga3ed etfaker bil mubarat al7eeen??? Hatha wagtaa—

“Atghashmar ma3aach shfeech,” he said while chuckling.

“7aail mat’tha7iik,” I said.

“Tukfaaain entaay shftay wayhich? Walla el3atheem filiiim,” he said.

“Maleeeq!!” I said.

“Akeed 9adat’ha el mu9awiraa thakreeny as2alha 3ugub lazim nakhith el9ora o enbawrizha 

o enwareeha a7fadna,” he said.

“Maaaashyyy,” I said.

“Enzain shda3wa thi7kaay lazim eb kil 3irs el ma3arees ytsasiroon o yth7koon bs madry 

shegoloon,” he said while whispering in my ear.

 “Awal shay, el mi3res mayithghaa6 murta eb 3irs’hum thaneyan akeed yimda7haa o ehya 

tst7yy o tith7aaak fa yalla emda7ny 3ashan ast7y o ath7ak,” I said.

“Walak Aroo7 lich fidwa,” he said.

“Waai3 Sa3aad,” I said.

“Haha la bas 9ij 9iij, entay a7la ni3ma raby 3a6aneyaha, allah ykhaleech ly yal ghalyaa,” he said.

Awwww!!!

“Bsr3a th7kaaay latkharbeen el mukha6a6,” he added quickly.

I giggled. “Etshaawig walla,” I said.

“Al7een ana at3ab o agoolich kalam 7ilu o entay ma3idnich ghair etshawig, mid7eeny yalla,” 

he ordered.

“Hahaaa! Allaah laya7rimnyy miniiik o ya7fithik lyy ya a7laa rayel,” I said.

“Yah yaah.. laa tharoory a36eech coursat shnu a7la rayel?” he asked.

“Hahaa 3ad hatha elly 6ala3 ma3aay,” I said.

Bas 9ijj 9ij, I can’t imagine my life without him.

“Isn’t it kind of amazing how a person that was once a stranger can suddenly, without a 

warning, mean the entire world to you?”

Yes it is!!

Noura’s POV:

I can’t keep lying to myself anymore, I’ve been thinking about Mit3eb the whole time.

Seeing Lulu and Saad together reminded me of the good times I had with Mit3eb.

9ij ena 3a9aaby o bsr3a yafqiid, bas maku a6yaab min galbaa!!

9ij enna marat yahmilnyy o yadgirny, bs awal ma ashkeela el 7aal yit3adaal o y3awithnyy 

3ala kil elly sawa.

I want to keep having good times with Mit3eb. I want him to be there for me all the time. I 

need my husband, because now, after all this time I’ve spent with him, I think it’s impossible 

to live without him.

After everything was over, my mother dropped me home. I tiptoed to my room because I 

didn’t want to wake Mit3eb up.

After our fight he has been sleeping in the guest room::

I walked into my room to see Mit3eb on my bed with the laptop in front of him.

He saw me and smiled, “Ha shlon el3irs?”

“Eyaanin mashallah, allah ys3idhum enshallah,” I said as I dropped my clutch and cardigan 

on the bed.

“Ameen, yalla 3ayal akhalech ana,” he said as he grabbed his laptop and headed to the 

door.

“La7tha,” I said.

he stopped and looked at me, it was obvious he was soo surprised that I stopped him.

“Umm.. aby agoolik shay,” I said. I sat down on the bed because I just can’t stand anymore my feet were killiiiing me from the heels.

“Amraay,” he said.

“Fakaart biqteraa7 elsafra.. o uhh 3jebatny el fikra..” I said.

“9iij??” he grinned and sat next to me.

“Eee,” I said with a smile. We need to work on our marriage, outside of Kuwait!

“Yala nagaay ay dawla tabeen tro7en o ana 7ather,” he said.

“Enroo7 el Maldives 4 days winrid shrayik?” I asked.

“Tamreeen amer!!! Al7een a7jiiz etha tabeen,” he said.

“Haha laa khal el 7ajz bacher,” I said as I got up.

He quickly shot up next to me.

“Noura,” he said.

“Amer,”

“Mayamer 3alaich 3adu.. walaht 3alaich,” he said, a smile tugging at his lips.

I smiled, ana akthaar walla

He held both my hands and then I flinched.

I gave him an apologetic look.

“Garibyy miny shwayy.. ridy anfasy 3alay etriky khofik ta3aly wedyy ash3ir eny 7aay!” he hummed.

I lowered my head, I’m sure my face was red.

He pulled me into a huge bear hug.

“Aw3dich enna elly 9ar baina gabel cham sboo3 mayin3ad.. o eny ba7i6ich b3yoony o allah 

layfaregnaa enshallahh,” he whispered into my ear.

“Ameen,” I whispered into his chest. Tears began to slowly cascade down my cheeks.

They weren’t tears of misery; no they were tears of joy.

Tears that show the sincerity of my prayers.

Tears that fall because my prayers are finally coming true.

I can feel my heart cry الحمدلله with every beat.

Every time things go wrong around me I will cry and I will pray.

I will cry and I will pray some more until God changes my life to the better.

I learned that when I’m going through a hard time the only thing I should turn to are my 

praying mat and Quran.

And as for Mit3eb, he’s nothing like I asked for, but everything I needed.

We complete each other in a way that fills both our lives in joy.

I pray to God that we grow old together and have children and live to see our grand children 

even.

But most importantly, that he keeps Mit3eb safe and well.

My Mit3eb.

Mi3eb ElGalb.

 Hello beauties;*

Soorryyyy 3ala el ta2kheeer!!!! bs hathy akher marra bin3any min hal mushkila lana hatha akher post:p

I reallly hope you enjoyed the story, o sam7oony 3ala lig9oor!

I'm going to miss writing and most importantly your feedback:( thank youu for making this a memorable and amazing experience;**

BYEEE!!!<3<3<3

Love,

Maggie 

Mit3eb ElGalb 29

Noura's POV: 

I remember I shed a lot of tears. 

I remember my heart was hurting in a way that i have never experienced before.

I honestly thought I might die because it was aching so bad.

I vaguely remember shouting and screaming but all that came out of my mouth were mere whimpers. 

In my head was a maze of thoughts and what if's ..

A dark forest of sadness and regret..

A vast ocean of tears.

I remember I hated myself..

I hated everyone..

I can still feel a sting in my heart when I remember waking up to see my mother and sister crying.

Even Mit3eb shed a few tears.

I remember waking up in shock, why are they crying? Do they think I'm dead?

I wanted to tell them that I was fine and that I'm still alive, but I felt searing pains as soon as I moved my head.

I felt my throat all dry and heavy.

My heart beats accelerated by the second, I wanted to know the reason behind their tears!!

They still hadn't noticed that i was awake, so I tried talking but no sound came out.

Am I dead? Is this what death feels like???

Thankfully, my mother noticed my movements and came rushing to me. A few seconds later they all gathered around me bombarding me with questions.  

My head was about to explode, and I felt a little sick. 

"Shisalfa? Shfekum tabchon?" I managed to whisper to my mother.

She tried sugar coating it..

She tried to make it seem like it was no big deal..

She tried to spill it out quickly hoping I would somehow not hear the horrible news.

But how could I not?

How could I act as if it was a normal occurrence in my life?

How could my heart not break into a million pieces hoping and praying that it was all a dream?

I felt a part of my soul die after I heard that my baby..

The small human that was growing inside of me..

The small person I grew attached to everyday.

My baby had died.

It was a very bad phase in my life that I had stored in a small part in my brain and hid it deep deep waaay deep down. Its a memory I like to think of more like a scene from a movie than my actual life.

I was so horrible, especially to Mit3eb.  I don't know why but I hated him, as if this was his fault.

Later, I realized what was obvious from the beginning. 

Of course its not his fault, hathy kitbat raby o enshalla y3awethna bedal el yahel 3asher.

Now I feel like he hates me because I've been treating him so bad.. Mayinlam el9araa7a..

Kint kela mnaafsa o wayed aroo7 3ind umy.. 

Awal shay kan ejamel we7awel elaa6if eljaw bs ana ma9akht'ha o uhwa gam e3a9ib o mayig3ad blbaait..

I over-reacted, and now the old Mit3eb is back!!

Al7een ga3da a7awel arathyy eb shatta el6uruq bs maku fayda!!

Yoom min el ayam ga3adt ma3a Mit3eb..

"Mit3eb, 7abeeby, Elyom ahalik bero7on eshalaaih khanro7 ma3ahum," I said as I moved closer to him on the couch.

"Maly khilg," he said looking at the TV.

"Yalla 3ad Mit3eb shda3wa minzimaan mo ray7een elshaalaih!! O eljaaw mal ba7ar," I said.

"Noura gitlich maly khlg etha btro7en ro7ay ma3ahum!" He breathed.

:(

"Ok 3ala ra7tik," I said as I got off of the couch.

He's so cold!

After a while he came to our room,

"Umy tawha daga tgoly ta3alaw ma3ana eshalaih.. Entay gaylatlaha tkalimny?" He asked angrily.

"Laa! Walla makalamt'ha!!" I said quickly.

He gave me a cold stare and walked away.

Chills ran up and down my spine.

He came back, "Esa3a 4 bamshy lata2akhirain!"

Okk ay awamer thanya?:) iff enarfiz!!!

I started packing our bags, adding our pajamas, bed sheets, bathing suits and all the other things.

7ail astanis asawy list elashya elly ba76hum bljan6a. also, I love crossing out the items as I add them into the bag. I'm sad, I know. :(

7ata wana msawya list o 7alty 7ala eyeely sh3oor eny nasya shayy!!:)

I started going through the stuff and making sure everything is in the bag when Mit3eb stormed into the room.

He widened his eyes when he saw me, "Makahlastaay?!!!"

"Emballaa bas bageely shwaya," I said.

"Ana mo gayilich 3 entay zahba???" He said.

"Laa!! Gtly 4!!" I said.

"Noura!! Ana adryy shnu gilt!! Yallaa bsr3aa khalsaayy ana na6rich ta7at!" He roared.

Staghferallahhh yaraby!!! Many gadra asta7mila!!!!

I quickly changed and called Leen to bring the bags downstairs.

I went downstairs ..

"Wain elaghrath?" Mit3eb asked.

"Ka al7een Leen btyeebhum," I said.

We waited for two minutes..

"Kil hathaa tyeeb laghrath! Wainhum!!" Mit3eb said.

"Madryy 3anha!! Leeeen," I called.

She didn’t answer.

"LEEEN!" Mit3eb bellowed.

"Yesss sir," she said as she hurried to us.

"Waain aghraath??" He asked.

"Shnu aghrath?" She acted clueless.

"Elly gitlich etnazlenhum!" I said.

"Entay maku ygol shay!" She said.

Kalbaaaa:)

"Leeeen latyaanineeeny tawny gaylatlich!!!" I said.

"Roo7ay yebeehum bsr3a e7na bnirkab elsayara," Mit3eb instructed.

"Etnaarfizzz," I muttered under my breath.

"Shgltay?" Mit3eb asked.

"Leen etnarfiz kila mchathbatny," I said as I got into the car.

"A9lan elmafroth mati3tamdain 3alaiha o entay ejablen shghlch bro7ich," he snapped.

Of course :))

We stayed quiet the whole way to the shalaih.

I'm trying my best to make things work but he's not helping at all!!

3ad I had this whole night planned 3ashan shway asa7la o yertha 3alaay..

After everyone went upstairs, I turned to Mit3eb..

“Khanroo7 nig3ad 3al ba7ar..” I suggested.

“Maly khilg baroo7 anam,” he said.

“Mit3eb please!!! Minziman maga3adt ma3ak!!” I begged.

He sighed, “enzain yalla.”

We went outside, took off our slippers and started walking silently by the beach. The salty air tickled the back of my neck and played with the strands of my hair.

The moon was a beautiful round shape that lit up the night sky; it’s reflection swayed beautifully on the calm ocean waves.

The smell of the ocean swam through my nostrils giving me the urge to just forget everything and jump!

I closed the gap between Mit3eb and I and reached for his hand. I tried holding his hand but I think he’s pushing mine away…..

Wow, just wow.

Bs mara7 akhaaleek!! Bamsik eeda gha9ib!!

I reached for his hand again and enveloped mine onto his before he can move them away.

“Walaht 3alaik,” I whispered.

He didn’t reply.

My heartbeats started accelerating, why is he being so cold?

“Shlonik ma3a el dawam? Minziman masolaftly..” I said trying to start a conversation.

“Zain,” he said sternly.

A chill ran up my spine. I’m not sure if it’s from this bitterness or from the moist air. 

The sand tickled my feet as they dove deep into it. The feeling was nice except for the small shells and rocks that got in the way.

“O shloon Nasser o Mohamad rab3ik?” I asked.

“O laish tis2leen 3anhum?” he asked.

“Umm madry awal kint kela tsolif 3anhum o faj2a fachait,” I said.

“Ya3ny wayed ehimich et3arfeen shlonhum?” he snapped.

I stopped walking and turned to him. The words started piling up in my mind and my heart started thudding in my chest. Its like all I can hear now is the rhythm of my heartbeats.

“Way Mit3eb shfeek?” I said.

“Mafeeny shay, yalla khanrid ta3abt,” he said as he continued walking.

I held his arm and turned him towards me, I’m sick of keeping this inside of me all this time.

“Mit3eb goly shfeek!! 7aail mitghayer! 9ayer 7ata matishtihy tshoofny laaaish???” I asked.

“Noura latsaween aflaam mafeny shay!” he said.

“Shoof!! Min meta tkalimny eb hal isloob!!” I said pointing at him.

“Shfee islooby ba3ad?” he asked.

“Ethahir enta mo 7as eb nafsik shloon ga3ed et3amilny!! Mit3eb meta akher marra gilna salfa wa7da 3ala ba3ath’ha min ghair la nit’hawash??? Ana shsawaitlik 3ashan t3amilny chthy???” I said a little too loud.

“Ya3ny matadreen entay shmsawya??? Min tewafa el yahel wintay mi3tafsa 7altich mata7shmeen elly jedamich!” he shouted.

“Ok a3teref enny kint ghal6anaa bas ana marait eb 7izzin!! Elly 9arly mo shwayaa Mit3eb lazim ta3therny!!!” I said.

“La walla??? Ya3ny bs entay elly maraitay eb 7izin? Tara mithel ma elly tewafa wildich tara uho wildy o mithel matiga6a3 galbich marra ana teg6a3 alf marra!! Bs mo ma3nata enny as7aab 3ala el 3alam wely fee!!” he roared.

My head was crowded with thoughts and regrets. The sound of my heartbeats got louder and the thumping in my head continued.

I felt a lump form in my throat and hot fat tears fall down my cheeks.

“Getliik enyy asfaa Mit3eb shnuu tabeeny asawy akthar min chthyy?? O al7een ana ga3da a7awel aratheek warid kilshay nafs gabel bs enta mo mkhaleeny!!!” I said.

“7ilwa hathy mo mkhaleeny!!! Noura mo 3ala kaifich kil ma 9ar lich shay titghayirain 3alaay o ta7gireeny machiny raylich!! 7eta tmur 3alay ayaam madry entayy wainich 7ata matabeen tkalmeeny!!!” he shouted.

I covered my face with my hands and sobbed. I had so many words to say but they don’t want to come out.

A part of me was wishing that this is just a horrible nightmare and that I might wake up any second now.

“O hathy mo awal marra tsaweenha feeny!! 7ata awal ma 7amaltay 3amlatly feeha ana ally aby umy o magdar astaghny 3anhaa o tharbatny bil7ai6 machiny adimy 3indich bil bait!!” he said.

“Mit3eb bs please lat9aarikh!!!” I said between my sobs.

“La ba9arikh!! Mo entay tabeen t3arfeen shfeeny??? Ka ga3ed agoolich!!” he said.

His face turned into different shades of red. I think that if I looked closely I might see fumes coming out of his ears. He was so angry that he was shaking.

“Enzaain khalaa9 Mit3eb ya3ny shinsawyy al7eeen??” I asked. Seriously, what do we do after this fight? How do we get it over with?

“Barid el shalaih,” he said as he turned around.

“La7thaa!!” I shouted as I grabbed his arm and turned him towards me.

“Khalaaaa9 Nouraa rasy m9adi3!!! Tukfain lat7ineeen!!!” he snapped.

A vein on his forehead popped.

“Mo ga3da a7in bs Laih meta o e7na chthy!!!” I said.

Our voices were growing louder and our hearts were beating faster, the air around us was so electric and scary. The ocean that was once so peaceful now looked menacing, like it might envelop us in a huge wave and drag is deep down into its stomach.

“Madry!!” he said.

“Shlon matadry?? E9ara7a ana maby a3eesh chthyy!!! 7ata magdar atfaham ma3ak!!” I said.

He widened his eyes, “ma7ad qa9bich 3ala elshay elly matabeena!!”

“Embalaa!! Enta elly qa9ibny eny a3eesh chthy!! kilshay asawy mo 3ajbik o tkalminy o nafsik eb kashmik!! Bas ta3aabt!! Madry meta eb tit3adal!” I said.

“La wallaa?! Tadreen shloon tray7een nafsich min hal ta3aab?” he shouted.

“La wallaa madrryy!!” I said.

“Noura entaay….. entay 6alig!!!” he shouted.

I don’t think I can feel my legs anymore.